LOVE??

I'm very much like you but more time has gone by...I'll be 41 in a few weeks. I'm single, never married, no kids. I have a college degree. I own my own business where I enjoy substantial financial & lifestyle benefits. I can pretty much have or do anything I want. I travel the world every year for pleasure and enjoy the esteem of my local community. The world is my oyster so to speak.

EXCEPT when it comes to love. I have never been asked out, never been on a date, nor had anyone want my number. Unfortunately I have not even had the pleasure of a companion for over seven years. Anyone I have ever been with, seemed mainly interested in the benefits of being with me not in me myself. To say I have been abused in more ways than one is the unfortunate truth.

Although I am tremendously lonely, I have tried to accept my life as it is and focus on the bounty I am blessed to enjoy. I try not to worry about the marriage I don't have and the family life which is strangely absent as I am estranged from my family for very good reasons and I actually have no friends of my own.

For years I tried to "fix" my love life; to find a compatible companion. Every one I picked was worse than the last and I finally stopped picking years ago hoping instead someone of value might pick me. I like to think a higher power will find me someone and I won't have to be alone any more but I have also come to accept it may not happen. This really may be all there is for me. Or not. I just don't know and I don't care to speculate.

For now, I try to enjoy getting thinner and feeling better physically. I try to be kind to myself. I try not to think about tomorrow too much and just focus on today. Today was a good day and I am thankful.