Made it to 199
I'm surprised to get here less than 2 months after surgery, and so happy. The last time I lost weight, I got down to 197 (I think it took 5 months to do!), so the clothes that I wore then are fitting me now. I have a LOT of stretch waist band pants that I wear to work, so they've fit until now, but I'm reaching the point where they are noticeably baggy, so I don't want to wear them anymore.
Over the last several years, I've had occasional dreams where I look down at my legs and my thighs are thin. In the dream I would feel pretty happy, then wake to a more unpleasant reality. Yesterday when I was riding my bike, I could see the thin legs emerging. It felt kind of unreal.
Speaking of my bike, I have been a bike commuter in Seatle for 5 1/2 years. In the past, taking a week off for vacation meant I would have to work hard for several days once I returned to commuting to get comfortable biking up the hills. After 6 weeks off, I feel stronger than ever. I'm biking up the hills faster. Yes, I've lost 38 pounds, but my leg muscles didn't have that workout for 6 weeks, what the?? I do feel really strong, and it seems bizarre cause I eat 600 to 800 calories a day. Does my body not know? That's what it feels like. My body thinks I'm getting 2000; that's what it feels like.
I'm starting to get lots of comments, and noticed a couple of men at work taking time to talk to me who had never done that before. I have to say this is the part I'm not looking forward to. I've been fat for about 20 years, and I'm pretty pissed off at the way fat people are treated. Now all these people are welcoming me into thin world and they are so freaking happy about it. Part of me wants to say "so glad my looks don't offend you anymore." I did this surgery for health reasons, but truly I do want to be thin. I feel kind of hypocritical in my militant stance, cuz I think I look better thinner, too. Ack. Clearly I have to work on this.
Anyway, for anyone researching this surgery, I give it 3 thumbs up, just to show my enthusiasm. It is very weird getting used to eating tiny amounts, but that's been the hardest part for me, and in truth it's not all that hard.
Over the last several years, I've had occasional dreams where I look down at my legs and my thighs are thin. In the dream I would feel pretty happy, then wake to a more unpleasant reality. Yesterday when I was riding my bike, I could see the thin legs emerging. It felt kind of unreal.
Speaking of my bike, I have been a bike commuter in Seatle for 5 1/2 years. In the past, taking a week off for vacation meant I would have to work hard for several days once I returned to commuting to get comfortable biking up the hills. After 6 weeks off, I feel stronger than ever. I'm biking up the hills faster. Yes, I've lost 38 pounds, but my leg muscles didn't have that workout for 6 weeks, what the?? I do feel really strong, and it seems bizarre cause I eat 600 to 800 calories a day. Does my body not know? That's what it feels like. My body thinks I'm getting 2000; that's what it feels like.
I'm starting to get lots of comments, and noticed a couple of men at work taking time to talk to me who had never done that before. I have to say this is the part I'm not looking forward to. I've been fat for about 20 years, and I'm pretty pissed off at the way fat people are treated. Now all these people are welcoming me into thin world and they are so freaking happy about it. Part of me wants to say "so glad my looks don't offend you anymore." I did this surgery for health reasons, but truly I do want to be thin. I feel kind of hypocritical in my militant stance, cuz I think I look better thinner, too. Ack. Clearly I have to work on this.
Anyway, for anyone researching this surgery, I give it 3 thumbs up, just to show my enthusiasm. It is very weird getting used to eating tiny amounts, but that's been the hardest part for me, and in truth it's not all that hard.
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