NOT EXCITED

I dont under stand why I am not excited about my surgery in two days. I tried earlyer today to get excite, when my PCP informed me I was cleared. I smiled a little but at the same time i was saying  to myself dont be happy. As I post this I really feel sad. Did any one else feel this way.I know I want the surgery but I feel something missing or am I in moaning

i go back and forth between being excited and being really sad too.  i know it's best for me but it's like i'm mourning the loss of control (not that i had any control with eating).  just knowing that i physically will not be able to eat as much as my head wants is a scary thing.  i know we'll all be happier a few months from now though so that's what is getting me through. 

I understand what you are saying.... I think it is sort of a mourning for the life you have had..
Not going to be the same.
Maybe sad because you (we) feel it has come to this to achive permanent weight loss.
I have lost a gained somuch in my lifetime I have to do something!!!
Mourning some foods which you may never be able to have again.
I am up and down....Still excited , but mine isn't until Nov.10th.
Best of luck.. I think you will feel better once you are on the other side of surgery.
Julie

It's definitely an emotional journey.  I've been up and down a lot in the past month.  I was ecstatic, hopeful, determined, anxious and scared before my surgery.

As a new post-op, I do feel sad at times that I can't use food as entertainment or comfort any more.  Once you take the step, there's no going back, and that can be a scary feeling.

But the good thing is that food has already become utilitarian to me -- it's something I do to fuel my body and follow my plan.  I enjoy what I can eat, but it's not the same as before.  That's what I wanted when I had this surgery.  Making the mental adjustment is tough sometimes, and I'm still working on it, but the good thing for me is that once I had surgery, it took the majority of food decisions out of my hands. 

I'm only two weeks out, but I have no regrets at all.  I enjoy readng the posts from all the vets who are eating fairly normally to maintain their losses.  That is what I hope for myself, and I think it will happen for me -- that's what I focus on when things are hard in the moment. 

Maybe the wise part of you realizes that this is just the start, and there are dangers and problems to be overcome before the goal is reached. I wouldn't be too concerned about how you OUGHT to feel. Be thankful that you have a level head; it will serve you well in the times ahead.

My surgery is Wednesday also.  I can't say I am excited.  I am scared and also mourning food.  I am afraid of failing again in spite of the drastic measure of am taking.  Maybe you feel that way a little bit also.  I have come to the point of deciding to have the surgery because all of my other efforts have failed.  I am sad that it has come to this.  Good luck to you.  Hope to see you back here on Friday!

Thanks family,I agree with all of you,I am low key worried.CC & jess best of luck on your up coming surgerys.God bless each and everyone of us as we make this journey.