I am at 199. But at waht cost!

Ok OH, I found myself obseesive over a number and over did it. I hate it when I become so consumed by my weight I will do anything. So I came up with this brilliant plan to go all liquids until the 25th of this month. Well to say that plan has failed. I work out extremely hard. On Tuesday I had 136 oz of water and 2 cups of protein went to the gym ran the track for 1 mile did the elyptical for 1 mile and strength training for my legs and then added a few reps of lunges. Now this is my usual work out but not on this meal. Any whoo on Wednesday my day off I ran around all day 2nd day of all liquids by the evening my body felt as if it wa**** by a truck. I have never been in this much pain in my life. I had to tell my PT what I had done as I was going to keep it from him. I got my a.. out.  SMH what was I thinking! 

 You know, I think a lot of us struggle with extremes, which is how we got into this predicament in the first place.  I am trying very hard to aim for the middle--which is probably the hardest challenge for someone prone to extremes.

Reboot, get your mind in the right place and get back to healthy.  You can do it!

I agree and how do you stop something you have done all of your life?

I'm prone to these tendencies too--an "all or nothing" mentality, if you will. And when I **** up on one extreme, which I inevitably do, I give up and go to the other extreme. It's been so hard. I did what you did this week--two days of liquids and pushing my body at the gym, and yesterday I felt like utter **** so I ate some chicken and veggies and felt soooo much better. This type of thinking is what got me to almost 250 lbs. in the first place...I can definitely relate to this post.

 Well, I sure wish I knew, and if I did, I'd probably have a lot more money than I do now, because pretty much the whole world wants to know the answer to that!  

I can say that I've had a fair amount of therapy and education about food issues.  My personal belief is that it is similar to most other addictions, with the difference that we can't just stop eating whereas an alcoholic or drug addict can stop using.  I have moved in and out of being rigid and compulsive about food, and I find that sometimes I'm more successful than others.  There are some good cognitive behavioral techniques and visualizations that have helped me through the years, learned from a therapist.

I know that for some people they replace the eating extremes with extremely rigid eating plans, and that works for them.  It's certainly a better alternative than binging or trying extreme loss technniques.  It doesn't feel like a great quality of life to me, so I'm *trying* to be a little less rigid without giving myself too much latitude, if that makes sense.

Sorry I don't have the magic bullet!

 There's an old 12 step recovery adage which is "progress not perfection".  I say that to myself a lot. ;-)

This is very common, I think we are all a little obsessed by the scale during weight loss.  Some people have done far more extreme things to see a number on the scale (I know a woman who had a breast reduction in large part so she could weigh less than 200 pounds).

When I get obsessed, I do a lot of "self talk" where I give myself a good talking to.  I start by telling myself that the scale is not God, I can't control what the scale says and I need to turn it over.  It's spiritually disrespectful to give so much power to the scale. 

Then I tell myself that it's not important that I weigh a certain amount, or if it is, then I'm supposed to be learning something by being this weight and so suck it up and learn my lesson so I can move on.

Then I try the scientific aspect, that my weight is going to fluctuate, my weight at any one time is just a piece of data in a bigger picture, the trend is down, so let it go.  I think I've said before that I say the words "Science Experiment" ever time I get on the scale to remind myself to detach from the numbers.  Kind of OCD, but it helps me.

I also have a deal with myself that I will quit weighing every day if it makes me compulsive about food.  Usually it makes me eat *more* because of my "what the hell, might as well eat" problem. 

Hope this helps!!

What were you thinking indeed!  Well I know exactly what you were thinking, because I belong to the all-or-nothing, drought or flood club too, or at least I did until very recently.  Many of us fall into this thinking and it's a trap for the most motivated and courageous among us.  You are in good company. 

What I have learned over time, is that the tools of good habits, planning, measuring and journaling, exercising, and of course my sleeve, are ENOUGH.  Hear me on this, WE HAVE ENOUGH, to be wildly successful without gimmicks, wonder drugs, crazy schemes or brand new diets.  We really have everything we need to meet every one of our goals, and surpass our wildest expectations.  You have already arrived, you just don't know it yet. 

I am sending you a huge loving hug and my strength, drive and vision.  I have walked this same walk you are on, and I can attest to the fact that it leads to beautiful places.  I will hold out the light, and you just follow the path you are already on, it will take you all the way home.

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