My rant about "cheating"...

theshrinkingmimi
on 2/18/12 7:58 am

Thank you. I second that!

Pre-liquid diet 392; VSG'd on 6/10/11; 5'9"; SW 368/ GW 195?

Pounds lost: mth1=26.7; mth 2=21.2; mth 3=24.8; mth 4=13.8; mth 5=14.2;
            mth 6=11.8; mth 7=9.2; mth 8&9= 17.2

walmartian
on 2/19/12 6:20 am

VSG on 03/17/11

"""""""""""""""""Eating an Oreo wouldn't be "cheating", it would be a freaking big red flag that something was really off the rails. Eating an Oreo would mean I was in a really bad place, about to spiral into the living death of addictive eating, roaming from one store to the other like a zombie in search of a fix. It wouldn't be "cheating."""""""""""""""""""""""""

I agree about the use of the word 'cheating' but....You MEAN the above? To me, having an Oreo (not 6 or 8 at once, but one or two) is NORMAL. I am not trying to be ugly, I am trying to understand the idea of one cookie or a bit of dip indicating this type of mental anguish. Wow.

Happy966
on 2/19/12 6:53 am

VSG on 08/29/11

You're not being ugly at all! A lot of people don't get it, and don't feel this way. I meant every word.

Yes, eating one or two cookies is completely normal. I am not completely normal, not in this area at least. "Recreational sugar" does this to me. You might as well substitute "having a beer" for "Oreo" if I were an alcoholic. It feels this serious to me.

It wouldn't happen all at once. It would be a cookie or two today, four tomorrow, maybe I can work them in for breakfast, let's buy the new candy bar I've never tried, let's buy a pound of Easter candy, I'll only eat a little tonight, let's buy a tube of raw cookie dough and eat it before I get home so no one will know, and the next thing I know, it's zombie Walgreen's time.

A lot of people try to tell me I can learn to normalize my relationship with sugar, learn to have just one cookie (or whatever). I have spent a lot of my life trying to figure out how to have just one, and it didn't go very well. Maybe I could learn, but I don't have the energy anymore, and I fear what would happen if I didn't learn.

:) Happy

53 yrs old, 5'6" HW: 293 ConsW: 273 SW: 263 CW: 206