Working on some stuff and I feel like a total psycho

Why did I think I was immune to "fat girl syndrome?" I mean am I that naive to have not seen I was 100lbs overeweight?

I felt so much more self confident 57lbs ago and now I'm just kinda confused. I'm in some weird middle ground, blech! I need to stop comparing myself to others. I keep thinking 'well so and so is in a size 12 and I'm not' or 'they said they were in a Large shirt and I'm in an XL'. 

It's so dumb. I cleaned out my closet and it is barren so I've been shopping for new clothes and it's great and terrible all at once. Things look weird especially under my arms. I think the arm holes are too loose but my boobs are still too big so I can fit into a smaller size.

I went to counseling and my support group this week so feeling much better but man, I am really tearing myself up over the last week. I literally couldn't get over the hump and turn in a paper that was due Sunday. I finally did it today but it's like my brain is so tired.

Am I totally nuts or did anyone else experience the emotional drain of all this new stuff? 

I weigh 175 now so I look 'pretty good' you know? Like there are people this size. My hubby said, babe you're not fat anymore, you're more like chubby. But I'm all judgy judgy on every wrinkle etc. Still 40lbs til goal though! Ugh! I'm going to sleep so I don't get myself even more spun up :)

 I am pre op here. But I just wanted to mention that I read, or saw somewhere that when someone goes through a major transformation such as yourself, your brain has a really hard time catching up. 

I know I am not going to say it exactly right.. but basically what I got from it, is if you are having a problem seeing the new you, you need to change it up.

If you are still sporting the same hairstyle as before a cut and color may be in order. Something to really highlight the new you :)

But, regardless, do not get down on yourself. You are beautiful and I am sure you always were and always will be. Just keep your head up and keep on trudging along 

First, the poster above is right that it takes our brains time to adjust. I still have to look at pictures to see how thin I really am (a little too thin right now).

On clothes, I think we become less forgiving of fit problems once we're smaller. I know I have. When I was larger, if it fit and didn't make me look ridiculous that was success. Now I actually want to look good in my clothes and it has made me a lot pickier. The slightest fit problem in any area and I'm not buying it - and I have a little bit of an unusual build so that rules out a lot of clothes.

I fit best in juniors sizes, but I'm 50 and don't feel comfortable in a lot of juniors styles. So for me, clothes shopping has not gotten easier.

I'm glad you're in counseling. I couldn't have gone through this huge adjustment without it.

You're human.  None of us are ever satisfied where we are - always looking for the next great thing.  It's a blessing and a curse.  On the blessing side, it's what gives us the drive to improve.  On the curse side, you make yourself crazy with it!

As hard as it is, stop and smell the roses.  Enjoy the fact that the weight is going down instead of up, even if it's not going as quickly as you'd like.  We all wanted to wake up from surgery thin, and it just doesn't work that way.  Our head KNOW that, but who wants to accept reality?  

Hey Tiff!
Like others have said and from what I've read on here it seems to be normal what you're going through.  I think you're doing a great job! 

By the way, I plan on attending the next group meeting....so I look forward to meeting you!

Take care! -Larry