Reality Bites

You hear all the time "You look great! How do you feel?" or "Wow, you have lost a lot of weight", or my new personal favorite "You look almost normal". I get sick of hearing it sometimes but I think it was starting to give me a big head. I was feeling really good about my 120lbs loss and my recent changes in exercise and even that my new smaller clothes are starting to become loose. But then reality sets in and I realize that I am still fat. Not make little kids cry fat, but to where I still don't feel good about myself and that is a good thing. That will make me work harder and keep things real but it still takes a bit of wind out of my sail.

Yeah, when I lost 90 lbs a couple of years ago; one of my friends said I looked great. I told them I was still almost a 400 pounder and the subject changed real quick!

I hear you, Keith.  I feel the same way.  I was so unsuccessful with my band and while my weightloss has been great since the sleeve I still have this underlying fear that I'm going to totally mess it up, go back to old bad habits (happening more lately!!) and gain everything back.  OR that I'm not going to lose any more weight.  Right now I'm two pounds away from being lower than my weight loss with the band and I'm really trying to PUSH to get there and lose even more but this week has been a crap shoot.  Nothing "bad" by any means but just haven't done grocery shopping or meal planning as well as I should have this week.  Makes me feel yucky!

Anyway, just keep on truckin!  You are way better than me with food, exercising, and protein and I strive to be like you!

Well the key is that you recognize that it is happening now you just have to stop yourself. The key is to have the things you need for the week. On Sunday morning I got to the grocery and get my food for a couple days and I make something that I can eat for lunch each day and I package it up. So when I get ready in the morning I make a protein shake and throw my lunch in a bag. Takes me about 5 mins for both. Exercise you just have to make yourself do it like brushing and flossing. Make it a "have to" kind of thing. So I have to go to the gym tonight or for me before I can go to a wine tasting dinner tonight I have to do my C25k training.

But the pre-planning has been a huge help for keeping me on tracks.

Something else I just started today but what I noticed is that I am not hungry in the slightest today in fact I feel like I just ate. I added 2 egg whites to my protein shake this morning and my lunch was just dense protein.

I'm usually so on top of grocery shopping and meal planning on the weekends but the past two weekends I was away.  It also doesn't help that my area of Brooklyn has THE WORST super markets around.  No, seriously.  I went to pick up a few basic items on Sunday with my husband...18 items cost us $70!!! I only bought ONE PACKAGE of meat.  Isn't that ridiculous?  I try to go shopping with my girlfriend who will drive to a better/bigger/less expensive super market but when I miss her trips it really screws me up. 

I've been pretty good with exercise too, I'm just feeling blah and lazy this week but I do force myself to go.  If it weren't for exercising, I probably wouldn't be losing anything!

Can you use Fresh Direct in Brooklyn?  I found that while they weren't the cheapest, the selection was good and they were cheaper than the grocery stores in Manhattan.

Keith -

 I've lost 27 pounds and no one really has said anything to me and I'm still fat too ! Ok I know I'm a light weight compared to others but some days it just gets to me . 

Now for the part were you said  " not make little kids cry fat " I almost peed that was so funny ! I needed avoid laugh today ! 

Nobody noticed when I was at 27lbs either. When you get to 50 you will get some play. 100 and its game on.