I ate ice cream

Yep!!!!  I can attest to this... not ice cream but but other sugary goodness and salt...I crave salt!!!

Ice cream used to be my favorite thing in the world. Yes I can "choose" to eat it now but why would I. There's nothing in it that I need nor can I fit it into my daily plan. So if I feel I have to have that cold sweet treat as an indulgence I get out my ice cream maker and make my own protein ice cream. There are recipes all over the internet. It serves the purpose of the sweet cold indulgence that I wanted and has some nutrional value that if planned for I can work it into my day. I dont do this very often because I have come to grips with what I need and what I can live without. So thats an option the next time you might want ice cream. I couldnt handle "real" icecream anymore as I cant stand overly sweet things anymore and making my own I can control the sweetness and whats in it.

I remember several months ago, posting here after a follow-up with the NUT, which had gone well.  All I wanted to do was dive into reward food.  I hadn't had a chance to eat lunch prior, so was hungry, but the primary reason was in my head.  I had a longstanding habit of white knuckling before an appointment, WW, Tops, whatever - when I'd be getting weighted, and then immediately after rewarding myself with something unhealthy - usually sugar based.  One of my biggest obstacles, which I've had to work really hard at getting past, is self-sabotage.  I don't know all of the reasons why I sabotage myself - low self-worth, issues with my mom growing up, etc., etc., etc.  For me it doesn't matter why, it matters that I am aware when I do this and have to fight it.  I am learning to find new, healthy strategies to battle my food demons.  Sounds like you recognized the same thing in yourself and are doing the hard work to get past it.  Good for you and good luck!!!  Mary