Everything in my closet fits (or is too big) AND this is my reaction

I went ahead and tried on the few remaining items in my closet that I couldn't fit into.  I'm about 10lbs away from my wedding weight, so I thought, what the hell?  I tried them on.  Everything fits, except one blouse bc my chest stayed a size larger after pregnancy.  Worse problems to have, no? 

My initial reaction besides the happy dance that scared my dog was to think "I really want to celebrate!  I want to celebrate with a cupcake!"  Followed by going to my favorite bakery's website to see what cupcakes they have today, and OF COURSE, they have my favorite one.  They only sell it once a week.  It was my wedding cake topper.  It's divine.  AND further justification, I have a gift card from my birthday (February) from a coworker who doesn't know I had surgery or my issues with sugar, so it would be FREE.  And don't I deserve it?  One cupcake isn't going to kill me.  I've lost so much weight.  All my clothes fit.  I've worked so hard.  And even while I know all those things ARE actually true, I know how self defeating and self destructive this thinking is, how it's such a slippery slope.  BUT I STILL WANT MY CUPCAKE.  This is addiction.  I actually feel twitchy and semi-drugged.

I'm hoping that by posting this here, filling up my Camelbak with ice cold water and hopping on my treadmill, that I can somehow not grab my car keys and in an almost hallucinogenic haze make my way to the bakery. 

Kudos to you for practicing restraint...Not sure I would have.  BUT, why don't you save that money you would put toward cupcakes, and buy yourself something NEW for that closet?  A new top, new shoes, a new necklace...something you WON'T eat but still feel awesome about :)

It's a gift card to the bakery. :(  I do really want this top that is on sale, though

Well, save it for when there's a birthday or some type of celebration/party in the family.  Buy something at the bakery that you DON'T like and force it on other people hehe   Although, I know how hard it is to find something one does NOT like at a bakery.

Go buy that top though, seriously.

I actually have done that.  I like to buy treats for my husband (who has a wonderful relationship with food and never gains weight no matter what he eats, lucky *******), and most of the cupcakes or other bakery delights don't even tempt me.  It's just THAT one.  I might buy that top, or a size 6 in jeans bc I need new inspiration apparently :)

Thank you for your support!

Aye gurl, you just reminded me that my cupcake addiction started last Mother's Day when I tasted the best flavored cupcake ever ....

Roseberry  ...  it's a limited edition flavor for this holiday (yup, they knew how to get this mutha!) 

It's Mother's Day this weekend & now I wanna rush over to Sprinkles!!!!

OK sorry... yes gurl, grab tha****er bottle & hop skip to your treadmill ... dang, I feel for you ... & me now!!! 

You can always make me laugh, especially when I feel like throwing a pity party for myself.  Ahh, mother's day. I'm going to a restaurant for brunch with my mom, and I am going to be very good then I'm going to get a massage.  I'm also going to wear my new size small dress.  That will keep me in check :)

Thank god I don't live near a Sprinkles or a Magnolia.

Man do I have a LOT to learn..I thought get your cupcake and split it w/ your
Family that way you don't obsess and you get the satisfaction your looking for...
I'll plead NEWBIE to this crime of sugar I committed...
Oh and BTW congratulations on your NSV!!!!

Hahaha!  I don't share cupcakes!  I cram them down my throat while searching for another one.  Sugar and I have a very intense, very destructive relationship.  I have zero stopping power, and all of my only child "I don't share" instincts come out.  :)