Everything in my closet fits (or is too big) AND this is my reaction

Oh Ravenbrown

We are so much alike! I too am an only child, and I also have a very destructive relationship with sugar, 300 #'s worth, ugh, I have not had surgery yet and am trying to get my friend sugar to back off and get out of my life for good so it will be easier to acclimate after surgery when I do finally have it. You mentioned in an earlier post having a certain kind of water bottle with more suction? Does it really work better than others? Just wondering. I really admire your will power, sometimes just giving yourself permission to want it makes it easier to walk away, for me anyway, one of my triggers was always wanting it more if I was told I couldn't have it. Childish I know, but hey, a lot of our food views came from childhood. We went to the store tonight and walked down the problem isles and I resisted, I was proud of myself, saved a lot on our grocery bill too--lol. I think your doing a great job, at least your thinking about what your doing and if you really want it, would you have done that before. I like what Elina said about the cupcake under your skin, sometimes we need those visual images . Thanks for that Elina

Best of luck staying on your path
Lisa

Don't make me have to go there girlfriend.  That cupcake has nothing on you.  Just imagine it plastered under your skin to your thigh or your butt.  Just remember that it might trigger you to have more carbs and that it will take days of hunger to get back to normal.  Just remember that you were willing to have major surgery and risk your life to get here.  The cupcake is just a cupcake but your determination and commitment are crucial.  I say, throw the gift card away, or give it away; make a ceremony of it to yourself.  You don't celebrate with cupcakes anymore, you are way past this.  If all else fails, look at some before pictures, and yes, you can get there again. 

Oh no, please go there.  I was hoping you would.  Before photos are the kicker, aren't they?  I've lost this weight before (not the 10 pounds extra ultimate goal), but I know how incredibly easy it is to slide down that black hole and it usually starts with food as reward.  I adamantly refuse to use food as a reward for my child, why in the world do I think it's acceptable for me?  It's not.  I love the mental image of me plastering cupcake over my butt.  I actually had that thought right before I jumped on my treadmill.  I am committed.  I am determined.  I am better than this pattern of behavior.  And I got in an good run on my treadmill. 

I suggest you give that gift card away and go buy the blouse. You will feel a lot better about yourself and half a new blouse instead of a new pound to wear!!

Too true!  Thanks :)  I'd much prefer to wake up tomorrow in the 150s (finally!) than have that cupcake today

....OR you can sell your gift card to Cardpool and they'll give you 92% of the total value of your card as cash back. :)

http://www.cardpool.com/sell-gift-cards

 

I have one question. Even if your friend doesn't know you had surgery, who the heck buys a friend a gift certificate to a cupcake store!? My best friend and I have both battled weight for years. We would never buy each other a food gift certificate. I agree with the person who said, go buy a new blouse instead and give the cupcake gift certificate away! Good luck!

He's a coworker, and the last time he saw me I was pregnant.  I work remote and he has no idea about my struggles  It was a nice gesture bc he knows it's my favorite cupcake place.  I'd prefer cash, but what can you do?  :)

Ha. Ha. Nice of him to think of you! He'll be really surprised when he sees you again! Congratulations on your weight loss.