I'm in a funk

I'm not looking for advice or anything.  I guess I just want to post because I'm feeling really depressed, and I've been feeling that way for a few days.  I tend to think it's because I'm so close to my initial goal, so close to a normal BMI, etc.  I had a beautiful Mother's Day.  I am an incredibly fortunate and, quite frankly, spoiled woman.  I've had two relatively bad days of eating.  I'm back on track today, and I feel confident I'll stay on track (thank you, sleeve).  I think the choices were self defeating choices.  I think I'm afraid of hitting goal.  I was actually losing at a steady pace, and I just sabotaged that.  I haven't gained, yet, but I'm really upset at myself for the past two days.  Why do I do this?  I'm committed to stopping the madness, but I can't get rid of the feeling of doom.  I really just want to cry.  Part of the issue is my mom and my hubs.  They look at me and think I've done so well, so it should be fine to have a treat, a meal or whatever because I look so good (their words).  That's what got me here to begin with.  Why don't they understand that?  I only have so much will power, and I need support.  I can usually tune that crap out, but I haven't been able to for the last two days.  I can't focus, I want to nap (this is a depression warning sign for me), but I'm full of nervous energy and kind of want to run around the room screaming.  My goal today is to get some exercise to hopefully elevate my mood.  I should be immensely happy.  My life is amazing, but I'm just not feeling it.  Hopefully this is passing, and once I have a couple good, normal days under my belt again, I'll feel better.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way.  I too have been in a funk and now I am having what I think are anxiety issues.  The doctor called something in but it will take a while to get into my system.  I went to bed last night and woke up at 2 and never went back to sleep.  I am just on edge and can't figure out why because everything seems to be going okay and I just can't put my finger on it.  My weight has even started dropping again.  I should be happy and not concerned about anything but that is not the case.....

I hope you feel better soon!

I'm sorry you're in a funk too :(  I hope you feel better soon as well.  I have anxiety issues, but I haven't been medicated for them yet.  There have been times that I probably should have been, but I've been able to somewhat manage it with acupuncture and such during those times.

change is scary and as you approach goal it takes on a larger significance.  as with the beginning of your journey, remember to do extra special things for "you," such as wear your favorite PJs, call a good friend, take a bubble bath and listen to your favorite music, etc., at the end of this journey's stage.  (i don't believe any journey really ends, it just reaches a new path to travel).  whatever feels nurturing and safe to you.  celebrate your success.  celebrate "you."  and its ok to mourn what was.  a counselor once told me that change was like death in some ways, you go through the same stages of grief, moving from disbelief to anger to guilt to ultimate acceptance, whereby you move on.  take a deep breath, several times, and remember that you are now choosing a different path to travel as you reach goal.  you got this.  you can do it.

Thank you for this.  I have a hard time nurturing myself in general.  I think sometimes I just need to not be so on top of everything because it's so exhausting.  The immense fear is from having been at my goal weight just a couple years ago, and I know how easy it is to just put it all back on.  Being mean to myself isn't going to help with any of this, and I need to stop avoiding the little girl inside who needs to be protected and cared for because when I do she ends up coming out with a vengeance in destructive ways.  This is a different path.  I don't have to make the same choices I have in the past. 

What Melody2 said!! :-) That was great.

Have you ever heard of "acting as if"?? I do this until a feeling becomes what I'm actually feeling. So if I'm grumpy, I act as if I'm happy, until I really am happy. It totally works for me.

You deserve all the wonderful things that are happening in your life. Enjoy them, it's ok to be happy. It's better then ok, it's a gift to you & to your family.

Smile!! (act as if)

You know how sometimes it feels like it's not?  I feel too lucky sometimes, and I need to remind myself how hard I have worked to have the marriage I have because it hasn't always been easy, the relationship I have with my mom, the job I have, even the weight I've lost, or my generally sunny outlook which came from lots of hard work in therapy.  I will try to act as if the past two days didn't happen today.  I will exercise and make good choices and fake it until I make it back to feeling great about myself.  Thank you

Thanks.  I needed that :)