Heavier than Chaz Bono!!
Not to sound like a cheerleader, but you need to get off the disgusted with yourself and humility train. Being in that frame of mind is not going to help you make positive changes. And frankly, yes there are reasons for your weight gain. Sure, you know how to eat properly, but that doesn't mean you always do. You need to look at why you are not eating as you should. That is the place to start.
Look, I have a very hard time with temptation. I struggle with it daily. I work where snack and carby crap food is always readily available. I know how hard it is to make the choice not to eat a cookie when my entire being is screaming for one. I'm a person who is carb sensitive to a degree. (I'm not sure how deeply sensitive I am, but enough that I know sugar can trigger a day long binge.) I think it would be best for you to acknowledge why you have been eating off plan. I am sure you have legitimate reasons - to me emotional reasons are legitimate. Once you have figured out what the reasons are, you will need to come up with a game plan to deal with whatever it is that triggers your eating.
Believe me, I work on this continually. I am not fixed. I believe that most of us need continued support and help throughout this journey. Clearly, you need some help and support, too. You should not be humiliated about this, but instead rejoice that you have come to the point where you recognize that you do need help.
I'm happy to help you as best I can. Please feel free to PM me, if you like.
This journey is not easy. Hang in there.
I have come back to this forum just for those reasons. I am trying to figure out what emotions/ feelings I am trying to stuff down with food.... I read on here that a lot of post surgery people still feel "hunger" I have not felt it since surgery 4 years ago.. That in itself should help me be a huge success...
I am setting aside an hour or half hour everyday of quiet time to sit with a notebook and pen and see what emotions I can feel and write down what I am feeling or trying to feel at the time. I will give myself permission to "feel". I don't know how long it will take to be able to have some kind of emotion come to the surface. but , I am going to keep this "appointment" with myself everyday....
Barbara
Okay, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get your butt back on track! (Big Hug). You know what to do so just do it. Go back to basics, log everything that goes in your mouth, eat your protein first, drink your water, exercise if you can. If the carb monster has taken over, then cut back, don't drink your calories. You got this!
