some one toss me a rope

ok guys I am in a hole I cant get out of I am so down on my self and from what I am told on every one else as well I am finding it really hard to talk to people and even harder to get off my butt and do something or be someone in this new life of mine I feel no one understands and that makes it worse I feel like a bad mother a bad partner and just a bad person all together I do just what needs to be done nothing more and sometimes less I feel like why did I do this to my self to just to end up feel the same way I did before all this I can do things now I just dont want to I am very sad most of the time (think my meds are off) and dont want to get out of the bed I am lazy I have come so far and and really happy with all that but I feel as if I have hit a hole that is deeper then I can get out of all by myself my BF tells me he is giving up on me and that helps with the pain depresses me even more and I have no one that lives near me that understands me and the reason that I am having a hard time finding were I fit any more I am told I dont listen to any one anyway so I guess that would not help either My BF is draging me down more I think and I dont know how to tell him he is soooo selfish I do every thing for him and he never thinks that some times I do feel like even moving much less do his colthes or go to the store for him ok I have vented and well leave it at this hope every one has a great mothers day love shelley

Hey Hon, I hope you get to feeling better real soon... I am sorry you're having such a lousy sucky time of it. Please realize the bad feelings won't last forever and you'll get thru this. You are very strong and independent and there's nothing you can't accomplish. You've come so far. Perhaps you can call your doc to discuss this and get your meds adjusted. It's good that you recognize something as being off and I know you can get help. Take it easy for the rest of today like all the other moms... enjoy your day and tomorrow make an appt and see if that helps.. As for the selfish bf.. he doesn't want to hear that he could be part of the problem so save your breath.. it's not worth another battle right now. You can break your foot off in his butt when you're back to your old self. IF he still won't back off then we'll be over to convince him to shut up and leave you alone.

Shelley, I'm not sure what to say that will help, other than you are a very worthwhile person. You may have to drag yourself out of bed and keep pushing yourself to get moving. I swear, exercise (even moderate) gives you a way out of the blues! Fake it till you make it girlfriend! Big Hugs, Lori P.S. Life is too short to let anyone drag us down.