aftery surgery horror movie
(photo is finally up)
My surgery went fine ( thank God) but i feel like i'm in a bad horror movie. I was like what have i done???? the first feeling I got after being awake after surgery...getting home was worse. Worse feeling of uttter shock i could have imagined Feeling a bit better ...I know cuz I am out of bed writing this, still feeling really weirded out that my problem with food had to have my insides reworked in a major surgery. My husbands great but what i need is 24 around the hour nurse and recovery time on an island somewhere...not going to happen...maybe thats why Star Jones and Carnie Wilson look so happy, they had motivaters around them. I just want to sleep all day...then i get up and freak out I am going to have a blood clot or my lungs will colllapse by doing this! Sent an email to friends, don't want to talk to them right now.They can not understand my feelings,,,hell i don't??! By the way, my surgery was down in New York State, I live Nortn of Otttwa 2 hours... 7 hour drive...
Freaked out is not a good enough word...
Please let me know if these feelings will go away soon.
Jennifer
Jennifer Don't worry trust me I felt the EXACT same way and it passed. I am finally to the point where I am happy (most of the time) that I did this. I told my grandmother (she came to help me out after surgery) that there should be a resort somewhere for us to recover for 3 months. People preparing our food, watching our vitamin intake and just allowing us to relax and recover. SOOOOO many times (even now) I've pulled up my shirt looked at the staples and the feeding tube and now the scars and said why/how did I let myself get this out of control with food??!! I sit and say I had Major surgery to help me lose weight what is wrong with me but honestly there isn't anything wrong with me I think it was a combination of poor eating habits and genetics.
Just hang in there and it will get better. I look forward to each new month and each new weight loss and I know that I'm succeeding. FINALLY after nearly a lifetime of dieting I'm winning this weight battle.
If you ever need to talk or vent or ask questions please feel free to email me. I'm not that far out yet but I might be able to help some.
Hang in there,
Jamie
Jennifer,
They go away. It does take some time. At my surgery center, they tell new patients that the first 7 weeks can be hell. It wasn't for me, but, that probably isn't a bad rule of thumb. You are going through some big changes. Being tired is what we all go through for quite awhile. Sleep, then get up and walk. You will be okay. Do this all day. Sip, Sip, Sip. Follow all the directions to the letter. You will gradually feel human again. Then at some point, you will feel better than you felt in years!!!! I'm one year out as of today. I've lost 145 lbs. I feel like a million dollars. Those first couple of months are very distant memories to me now, but, so worth it!!!!
We understand here. Keep coming back!!!
Big Hugs!
Lori
Congratulations on your surgery! Yes, the wacky feelings will go away. The surgery is major, as you well know, and it takes our bodies a while to recover. Same for our minds. We ate a certain way for many years and now it's different.
We can be your motivators!!! And we are stars in our own rights!!!
Going through the process to get this surgery is stress enough - then we get it, we're home from the hospital and BAM - it's real!! I do believe that things get better as each day and week passes. Just hang in there, keep a positive outlook and reach out to others for help! And remember we're here too!
Much love from Miami, Carol
Jennifer,
That feeling will go away it just takes some time. You will begin to feel stronger and your energy will come back and before you know it you will be up an running. So hang in there I remember the stage you are currently in since it was just last week I was feeling that eay but just so you know this to shall pass.
Lorraine
