What is Wrong with me?!
Okay so I had RNY Gastric Bypass surgery just over a week ago - before the surgery I had some problems with binge eating, but I figure since I wouldn't be hungry that there wouldn't be a problem.
There are times where I eat just a little bit to satisfy me (I'm only allowed 2 snacks a day) and then there are times where I eat too much and either throw up or have a really sore stomach.
Then there are times where I eat one extra snack, just a little. Or two extra snacks, just a little until I'm full. I'm not hungry I'm just so used to the constant eating I don't know, I feel like I have to. Then when I throw up (if I throw up) I feel so relieved because I didn't want that in me in the first place! Sometimes it's because I screw up my meal times... I just don't know anymore
At first I felt like I lost weight or inches, now I don't. I feel like I'm gaining weight. Even though I'm eating a hell of a lot less than what I used to.
Is this just something you experience in the beginning, until atleast your first weigh in? I haven't had mine yet - but I'm stressed out over it. Maybe I'm just eating to make myself sick to take my mind off of it?!
Does everyone feel like this? Does anyone feel like this?! What's wrong with me?! What is this doesn't even work!? It's my last hope. I feel so hopeless. 
My heart really goes out to you. Your feelings are normal, but your behavior is not typical. Excess vomiting is very bad for your pouch at this stage. It seems that you are so used to constantly eating that you don't know how to stop. I think you need to hook up with a therapist who works with patients with eating disorders ASAP. I am worried about your health, dear friend. All of us SMOs have eating disorders. It is how we got here. Love yourself and get some help. This will work for you. The tool does work. Follow your doctor's plan and if you can't get some help. You have reached out to us, reach a little further. I care, Loris
Serena, I'd call my surgeon and talk it over with him. I know that sometimes my mind plays tricks on me and I still think something will taste good or that I really want to eat it but I just can't do it. I think it takes time to retrain our brains foodwise. When I was newly post op everything smelled so good and looked so good and I was MAD I wanted it! After tasting a few things I realize for me nothing tastes the same and even if it does taste good I just can't eat it. Lately I've been having the most horrible time just trying to eat anything. I just have no desire to eat. It like we move in stages and maybe your time will come when that hungry feeling leaves you. I would seriously call my surgeon and like the girls suggested see a therapist. I know my the guy I saw for my Psych eval told me if I needed to he would see me after my surgery. We've been living a free-for-all lifestyle with food for years and it will just take time to revamp that thinking. Everyone is different so for some of us it's easier and some it's harder.
Please check it out though because your little pouch is very sensitive.
Take care and please keep us updated!
Hugs,
Jamie 
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