How bad am I ?

I'm one week post-op today down over 20 pounds and have my follow-up appointment tomorrow. I've realized over the past few weeks how addicted to food I really am, heck I've even been dreaming about it! Mind you I've been on a liquid diet now for 3 weeks, and still have one more to go before I can add pureed food. It's not fun, but I'm also not hungry, my brain just wants me to think I am. I've been watching the Food Network while I've been off (normally I work 40-50 hrs. per week), last night I had the urge to bake something, so I baked my In-laws a rum cake, something they've been asking for for months now. Today I told my hubby I'd fix him dinner, he wants pork chops, potatos, and veggies. I also went ahead and made a half portion of a Mexican chicken casserole for tomorrow nights dinner. To top it all off I have 2 coffee cakes baking in the oven right now. One will go in the freezer to take to a party next weekend, and the other hubby is taking to work tomorrow. I've find when I bake and cook I don't eat, but it's going to make everyone around me fat! I just love being creative, and making people happy. It's rotten not being able to drive, and being home bored! Janet

Janet isn't that funny!! I thought my family would be so much healthier after my surgery because they'd be eating what I eat..NOT! I've been making cheesecakes, muffins, cookies, brownies...you name it I've baked it. I am finding myself cooking things that I used to only cook once in a while more regularly..more fried food also. I told my sister it's like I'm feeding them all the things I can't have. My poor husband would walk a mile over glass with no shoes for a hunk of brownie and I've been keeping him stocked up. He has to get up every morning at 5 and do physical training and he says I'm making him fat.. I've always enjoyed baking (especially around the holidays) and cooking so now I'm just more into it. It irks me that I can't taste what I'm making though becuase I'm very much a cook *****ly's on taste more than recipes. Jamie

Oh Lordy, I hope I'm not doing this to hurt anyone! I have always loved to cook and baking is something I've always loved anytime of the year. I do feel like I'm so addicted even if I can't have it I still want to bake/cook it and have it around, wow that's bad! Oh but did the house smell so good tonight! Janet

I too watched the Food Network while I was recovering. I love it! I still love to cook, but it's different now. And boy, do I remember the realization of those first few weeks about my food addictions. I even cried for the loss... How bad is that? Leeanne