Warning...Sunshine is ranting.

Okay....so maybe I'm just in a mood but sometimes I feel like I stick out soooooo bad at my job. I work in a billing office and just about everyone here is always talking about healthy food, exercising, how they need to loose 5 pounds...etc. Now you may be saying to yourself....Sunshine that is a good thing! Eh? Well, yes it is but I can't help feeling like I am on display as the creature "they" don't want to turn into. Maybe it's all in my head...maybe my insecurities are finally getting the best of me...or maybe I am right to assume most people in this office have said something negative about me at one time. Not that I am innocent - I have made my own remarks. A lot of people just assume that if you are fat...you are lazy...sloppy...unmotivated - the list goes on and on. BUT on a positive note they think...and this is my favorite line of all times...you have such a pretty face. This is just a slap in my face every time I hear it. I am just fed up with being treated the way "we" get treated...at times. Sorry for ranting & I'm not trying to throw a pity party - everyone has their own problems and wars hey have to fight. I just didn't want this to be another bad day. And sometimes I like to talk to someone (OH world) who actually understands...even if it's just a little.

Hey Sunshine, Believe me, I understand... I have never understood what also gives complete strangers the "right" to walk up to you in a store or anywhere else and say " you know my so and so, she has lost ## amount of weight, have you tryed doing that? " come on now, jeez! That for a fact has happened to me and I am just deer in the head lights looing "until" im gone and down the road somewhere and then the "evil" sets in and im like that (*&^% , I should have said to them.... Lol but its always to late. So if thats the case, the way fat people are precieved, Id take lazy, over stupidity anyday wouldnt you? But it is also a bitter sweet feeling also when you have surgery and get to losing because you also see a difference in how some people treat you being smaller. I still cant get over that one. Its like you werent worth the trouble talking to when 400lbs. So go figure.... You will never figure some people out... So dont let this bother you and look forward to the future. Times are a changing .... Hugs Marge

Thank you Marg! (may I call you Marg?) Sunshine

Hey Sunshine girl RANT ON!! I am SOOOO sick of people in general. I have people at my son's school who ( I BARELY KNOW THEM) feel it's okay for them to walk up and say "so how much have you lost?" I've always been the biggest (with the exception of my great grandma) so now people in my family are scrambling to lose weight WTF??!! My grandmother on my mothers side thought it was funny when we were the same weight...I thought it was funny when I ZOOMED right past her. I'm sorry I know I shouldn't be that way but that crap just pissed me off! I was just telling my sister the other day everyone in our family MUST have felt comfortable with me being the biggest as long as no one got close to my weight they felt safe and "skinny" WELL hell's bell's did they want me to stay that way forever just so they could feel good about themselves?? Sorry to screw up their little plan but this chick is getting skinny and be damned anyone stuck in my path.. I just can't understand why people think it's okay to give advice to, belittle, and just plain out constantly harrass obese people?? What is the deal?? I do not remember having a sign on my back that said "help me please...advice needed, diets needed!" I've always told everyone close to me that I can't stand people in general( YOU Guys are my home away from home and better than family sometimes!! ) Well you know what I mean anyway. I can remember wanting to get out of the house so bad and then the whole trip being worried about what people were saying about me or GOD FORBID we go out to eat I just felt like the star of the salad bar show..what is she putting on her plate..OMG look what she's eating. When I was pregnant with my third child my mother took it upon herself to tell my husband he better keep an eye on me because I ate more than anyone else at the table!!!??? Now watch when I go home she'll say "Jamie your not eating enough"..can't win for losin'. Wheww got off on a little rant there myself. Sunshine just let those people talk! I know it has to be difficult to go to work and feel out of place but one of these days your going to walk in and be the talk of the office..wow look how much she's lost, look how great she looks and then you can just snuff em and leave em guessing!! I have my little list of people I can't wait to run into when I go home. People who thought it was okay to tell me EXACTLY what was on their pea brains so I'm going to walk in and say "look at me now!" Gotta run to take the kiddos to school but don't let those jerks get you down..your day is coming...and fast!! You'll be sitting here on the Loser's Bench right beside Marge and I and we'll be glad to have ya!! BIG HUGS, Jamie

thank you, thank you, thank you...someone feels like me!! {yay} I was having a rough morning! Sunshine

Hey sunshine...when someone tells me I have a pretty face( I do) I tell them they have a pretty wrist or toe or arm.....makes the point!..g

WHOA! - - - - - - great idea! Thanks!

HOPING YOU HAVE A BETTER DAY SUNSHINE! I know the feeling, am trying to get approved for surgery--no support from home at all, husband and Mom neither one want me to have it done--I am the heaviest in my family and in my group at work...Eating out, I do very little because of how self conscious I am, we usually go to a buffet so my husband can get his fill 5'8" 185 lbs(life is unfair sometimes) but as usual, I feel all the looks and glances, especially if I help my daughter with her food, and then go back after mine--oh well, hopefully, we will be on the losing side soon and can better educate those family members and work mates. Hugs, Chris