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Well Duke called late yesterday afternoon told me my nicotine test indicated to them I was smoking. I told the person that there are smokers around me 24-7 and I have done everything I know to have them not smoke around me. Yes I admit I threw in the towel in July when I was working everyday I did start smoking I just felt why not who cares. I started just haveing a smoke on my way and one on my way home but then it became more. SOoo to make a long story shorter I opened up and let hubby and his buddie have it last night. It was very emotinal some yelling and screaming going on but I STOOD MY GROUND In the end they admitted they did not make it easy for me the 3 months I was smoke free and they promised to do better. I have a nictine test set again for the 5th of October. The nurse also said my A1C was 8.2 on the 5th but I had just had one on the 2nd with a reading of 7.9 explain that one. Today is a new day I am smoke free again going to refill my wellbutrin and make contact with the first hospital wls I started with and possibly have all my records sent there but of course I will have to do this in person by going to get my records. Thank you everyone for being here for me . I told the happy boys last night you have no idea of the obese world unless you have lived it and the desire to want to be normal and not hurt. Annie

Annie, As hard as this is, it is totally up to you to make all of this happen. I can so understand your frustration with lack of support from your significant other. Sometimes when I feel sorry for myself for being a widow on my own, I read stories like yours and realize that having a partner may actually be worse for obtaining my goals then being on my own. I hope you don't feel I'm being unsupportive. I just know from experience that you have to dig deep and find your own strength to get through this journey of weight loss surgery. Getting past the approval stage is just the beginning of a life long commitment to taking the very best care of yourself possible. It is hard work. Good luck and big hugs to you! Lori