could somebody throw me a line here?

so here i am again, ******g and moaning. i'm feeling so hopeless, and so useless, and so helpless. i've been off work for almost a month now. i saw the ear surgeon yesterday and he told me that i must have had an infection because about a third of my eardrum was gone. he cleaned it up (hurt like heck), patched it over, and said see him in a month. then i went to the foot surgeon to get the stitches out. he said go ahead and use my foot however i'd like, but guess what? the suture line was seeping blood and soaked thru my sock by the time i got home. every time i get up to walk around it starts again. so i'm starting to feel as though i'm trapped here, can't move around, and can't do anything. my dizzies got worse, too. it just wears me down, guys. i'm very close to tears and try as i might, i cannot seem to cheer me up. i know it'll be ok, i just got into a funk, i guess. HELP!!! dorthe

Dorthe, you just go ahead and **** and moan as loud as you need to! I know firsthand how frustrating and annoying it is to have health issues that refuse to resolve as fast as we want them to. I'm wondering if there is a way to bandage your foot so there's enough pressure on the suture line to keep it from bleeding, yet not so much pressure that it impacts healing? Are you on antibiotics for your ear or foot problems? My health problems aren't as bad as they used to be. When they were really bad, and all I wanted to do was scream in frustration, I found that just taking it an hour at a time got me through the toughest parts. Cry if you need to, it will help you feel better. We're here for you! Hugs, Kix

Dorthe, I'm so sorry you are going through this! But, you have ever right to whine about it!!!! I dealt with so much depression when I went through my breast cancer stuff. I hate being sick. It is one of the main reasons I did the surgery so that I could be well again. But, like you, a non-weight related illness could still be lurking! It scares me. But, taking it one day at a time and knowing you will feel good again one day! I wish we didn't live so far apart...I'll support you from afar I guess! Big Hugs, Lori

Consider it thrown, Dorothe, now you catch it and climb back up that rope. Cry it out until your tears are empty; then look around you and find just one little thing that you can consentrate on. During my "dark" days when my husband was very ill with his cancer I just turned on the tv and watched those old comedy sit coms. At first I had to make myself sit there--they weren't the least bit funny. Sometimes I just stared at the screen and couldn't even tell you what was on. But--slowly they got to me. I prayed a lot. The first time I chuckled I scared myself. I couldn't figure out where that noise was coming from. Researchers now tell us what our grandparents have known for centuries--laughter heals. It raises your immune system so you will heal faster. Perhaps this isn't for you...but find something to concentrate on. Try real hard and fight like you've never fought before. You will find that something that will work for you. I'll be thinking of you and remembering you in my prayers.

hi: i tried to email you directly but it rejected twice. i wanted to let you know that your email finally brought on the tears that have been threatening all day. i'm not sure why i feel like i shouldn't cry - but it's how i feel. your message did remind me, though, that we're all going through stuff. some harder, some easier. and also that there's always a solution, i just have to have some faith. thanks for the message - faith. your timing was perfect dorthe

I'm so sorry your email was bounced back. Try this one if you [email protected]. I'm glad it helped a little. I've been through a lot of painful times, learned from them and if I can help you a little I'm just glad I was able to pass it on. Just keep moving forward with those baby steps and keep us posted. It's ok to cry. It gets rid of those nasty chemicals that have been clogging up your immune system. We were designed to cry. Perhaps like me, you were socialized not to cry. I had to learn how, too. Take gentle care...

Oh girl - you have every right to be upset and depressed. I am so sorry that your ear surgery has not been more successful. Did your ear surgeon seem to think that your eardrum would grow closed again quickly? Or will you require surgery to repair the hole? I teach deaf children so I am aware of some of the problems with ears and hearing. If I recall correctly, you had surgery to correct the ringing in your ears right? I have spoken with others who have that constant ringing and it is maddening. My mother suffers terribly from it. As far as your foot is concerned, did you contact your surgeon to let him know of the amount of blood still draining from your wound? Perhaps the stitches were removed too early. Kix mentioned antibiotics. You would need to be on something between the problem with your ear and your foot I would think. Do you have family or friends around to help you on a daily basis? Just hang in there. I know how frustrating it is for your body not to let you do what you want it to do. That is exactly what brought me to the realization that I really needed to look into WLS. (my surgery is scheduled in 19 more days!) I will keep you in my prayers. Karen

Dorthe................. Been there.....I had foot surgery a year ago in September and I swear it was worse that my GBP. I will NEVER do that again. My heart goes out to you. I also suffer from depression...........I'm so sorry..............the only thing I can say........... Wrap that foot and take a warm bubble bath with LOTS of candles................ Think of this........... Remember when you couldn't take a "bath"?????? I sure do. Smile girlfriend, you will get through this. I hope you feel better soon............ Big hugs to you!!!! Carmella

Hang in there girl!!! Good thoughts and well wishes coming your way. Sandra A.