Gym Is Open (Friday)
And I wish I had your confidence to work out at the gym with a personal trainer. I am still way too self conscious to do that. Occasionally, my friend who is also post-op will get free passes to her gym and will invite me along. I don't get the full benefit of the class because I spend too much time worrying about how I look to everyone else and what they must be thinking. It's not only the whole body image thing, although that is a big part of the problem, but I also don't have nice "gym clothes" and gear (just old, faded and ill-fitting sweats, mismatched tops, and old sneakers that needed replacing months ago!), and I am rather uncoordinated (almost broke my neck the other night trying to do a simple box step!) I know that no one is probably paying me much attention at all, but I still can't help being self conscious. In addition, I am waaaay too lazy to spend time driving to a gym and driving back home. Luckily, I have lots of room in my basement and the cats only bother me when I'm trying to sleep or study! Plus at home, I can even workout in my underwear if I choose. Now there's a visualization I'm sure you didn't want!! 
