Failing?

After the last few weeks I have done a great deal of soul searching.  I feel like i am failing.  I haven't lost an ounce in several months and now I have gained a bit.  My clothes started feeling a bit tight, and when I got on the scale today it was not pretty.  I may try the plateau buster diet to see if I can get things going downhill again.  I still feel crappy most days and am still just trying to make it through and take one day at a time.  Boyce is being so sweet and supportive, I could not ask for a better spouse.  The financial situation is no better, but who knows, I spent the last $5 I had on Mega Millons numbers for Boyce.  That would be incredible-$150 million dollars!  I know it would make new problems for us, but at least I would not have so many worries.  Just this past Saturday our neighbor knocked on the door and told Boyce that he was walking his cat(yes, he walks his cat!) and he noticed what he thought was water running down our foundation.  Boyce went out and checked and reported that we had a burst pipe.  We also had a partially flooded bathroom and everything under the sink was soaked.  Boyce turned off the water, so the surprise will be when we get the water bill next month.  Since it is also tag/car insurance things are going to be even tighter than usual.  My next dr's appointment is March 6.  I think I will be able to tell him things are better, but I really have to keep a reign on things sometimes.  The medication helps, so I guess I am better.  Even crocheting again on a new baby afghan and I don't know anyone having a baby.  Thank goodness I have a ton of yarn in my "stash", so I can usually make whatever I fancy when I see a new pattern.  Going to run now. Hugs, Janie

Hey Janie,

Just wanted to drop by to say Hi!!! So sorry to hear about your flood.  It always seems that when it rains it pours doesn't it???  Hope you do good with your doctor appointment coming up.  Your health is really what is important now.  I love picturing you crocheting away.  I probably have a "stash" of fabric like you do yarn Hugs and Smiles, Ginger

hey sweetie.  let me start this message by saying it's truly wonderful to see you posting again.  i, for one, was sincerely concerned about you.  so i'm glad you're getting back on the board.   NOW - it sounds as though your cup of problems runneth over.  don't you just hate it when you think you've got even a small piece of your life under control and then LIFE comes around and bops you on whatever part of you is most vulnerable.???  that's how i've felt lately, anyway.   sounds as though boyce is a real winner.  so is my dh - tim.  so if we're gonna count our blessings - which has always been my best remedy for the down times - we could both start by counting our special someones.  :-)    isn't it a good thing that your cat walking neighbor cared enough to stop by and give you a heads up on the flood situation.  even though it sounds like it's bad - it would've been way worse if given more time.  (how am i doing looking for that silver lining?)    i get to see my wls surgeon next week too, hun.  if he says anything to me about lack of weight loss he's gonna get a foot up his you-know-what.  IMHO, when life throws us these flippin curve balls, we do the best we can and that's gotta be good enough for awhile.  of course - i say that now.  i'll let you know how i feel after i've seen him next week.      but before i see him next week, i get to see the surgeon who 'fixed' my ear.  i've been getting bloody discharge from my ear so i'm not all that sure it's fixed, but the doc's on vacation this week so monday is the earliest i can see him.  :-(    you're so lucky, janie.  you can crochet, and read a pattern, and you're creative.  and that sounds like a whole lot to me.  i can't crochet anymore because it aggravates my carpal tunnel.  i've never been able to read a pattern, either.  so even if i was able to crochet, all i can do is a straight line.  :-)    this is getting way longer than i thought it would, hun.  but please, please, please be kind to yourself.  you can't be a failure because you're not at the end of your journey.  you're just on a byway.  soon you'll be back to the main road, girl.  and in the meantime, try to be nicer to you.  you truly do deserve it. hugs, hugs and more hugs dorthe

Hi, Janie! You aren't alone.  I know several people who are having bad patches right now.  For me, I have always hated January - March, it seems like everyone's rhythms are off and things don't get back to normal until spring. I can't read a crochet pattern to save my  life!  As for the baby afghan, check with you local hospital to see if their preemie ward accepts donations.  I know there are groups here in Colorado who knit and crochet blankets for hospitalized babies and children. I'm waiting for UPS to bring my yarn so I can work on a dog afghan for my  niece's dog.  I saw the pattern on the Lion Brand Yarn web site and it's basically a big square.  I can do that, and if I try really hard, I can even do a pebble stitch (as long as I don't lose count of which stitch goes where).  Kix

Hi Janie! It's so good to see you back! And doing better! I had the same experience about 3 years ago - I was going through an absolutely horrible time, to the point I couldn't even eat. I felt sick to my stomach from the stress. I figured I would lose tons of weight, but instead I gained. I asked my Dr. about it and she told me it was due to the stress' affect on your body. It's just like when you hit plateaus after surgery, and everyone always says it's because your body isn't sure how to handle the change in eating. Exact same thing for stress - your body knows you are stressed and it is holding onto everything it can to help deal with the situation. Now I notice it all the time - when I am stressed I gain, it never fails. Take care of yourself hon - hope everything gets better soon Pam

Hugs, Sorry to hear about your flood. One day at a time is all any of us have to work on. Dont overwhelm yourself sweetie. Hang in there. If they put you on some anti depressants they may be the cause of some weight gain. Talk to your doctor about it when you see him on the 6th. I have been in your shoes Janie. It does get better one day at a time. Hugs.  There is always someone having a baby. My neice is and she didnt thing she could have a baby bacause of damage done to her when she was little. Isnt that something. She kept telling everyone that god would bless her with a baby. Now we are praying she can carry it full term. Anyway if you ever want to chat email me. Hang in there. lov ya marie