Out of sight cause I'm out of my mind...
We can't even tell how much, as I not only weigh more than the scale allows (bad scale
) but I entered a new level of numeric groupings that I swore I would never, ever see 
. I admit I did not change much during this month, (except for some reason my mobility had really gotten much better, than all of a sudden became quite diffuclt again right before the visit) but that just meant I shouldn't have lost anything. Mind you, this gain appears more than a monthly water-weight thing. Ever since, I have just been unable to stop gorging, like I haven't done in a very long time. I have been obsessing about whether or not I will ever get to have surgery, if my mobility will ever improve and how I will stand it until I get the surgery this summer, and if I will be able to lose as much as you all have. I see such large amounts, and think I can't do that. I have started thinking that a pound a day won't be enough, when I really know that it is too much to expect. It looks like I won't be able to consider really working again until I have lost a good deal of wait and can move better. This is also upsetting me. Is this a normal part of the pre-op period? Or is this just "us" and the thing I am so afraid won't go away after surgery? 
-Julie 
and obsess about your surgery quest. It goes without saying that each of us "posties" have gone through some point where we felt those very same feelings. My surgeon did not require a weight-loss in order for him to do the surgery..my insurance company however, required a 6 month weigh-in with doc diet in order to qualify. 
Within that 6 month period, I gained and lost the same 6 pounds. Truly, I failed at every "diet" I tried before so why did they (the insurance co.) think I would magically be able to do the 6-month thing? I felt like I was a little kid being punished..until I could show my worthiness. I feel safe to say that all of us here on this board(over 50 BMI) have a unique perspective with this weight-loss surgery, and that is.....we came into this thing with an embarassingly high weight and this was our last resort to make that change in our lives. Keep in mind that the more you have to lose, the faster it comes off. You are soooo normal Julie. Just hang in there, you will do terrific!!!!
Hugs 
and Smiles
Ginger 
Hi, Julie:
In January of 2006, I weighed 530 lbs and was getting ready to begin my modified Optifast diet. I was terrified that I would not be able to lose the 10% my surgeon wanted me to lose before I could begin attending the ten-week pre-op classes. Instead of thinking, "Oh my God, I have to lose 53 lbs!" I just dealt with it each day at a time. It's often too hard to look at the big picture without getting discouraged and deciding, "Phooey! (well, I was going to use a stronger word, but I didn't want to offend 
), I can't do this!" Some days can be easy, and there are some days where you just need to manage it hour by hour. This doesn't make you a failure, it makes you human.
It's not easy. If it were easy, WLS wouldn't be necessary. I'm struggling right now with a plateau and am almost dreading the weigh in tomorrow. I don't think about the 40 lbs I lost without effort between the end of December and early February, I think about the fact that I've been at the same
weight for three weeks now!
A year ago, I couldn't walk more than a few steps. Today, I was able to leave the walker in the car and walk short distances without it being a problem. My next goal is to go to the rec center and begin using the treadmill. It will be another milestone for me in terms of getting some sort of normal life back.
I can't speak for the group, but I don't think you are whining. You're afraid. We've all been afraid, this WLS journey isn't easy! That's why my backside gets chapped when people dismiss WLS as being "the easy way out." (Oh, yeah! You try it and see how easy it is).
I'm pretty confident you can do this, just keep on keeping on! 
Hugs,
Kix
PS; Why doesn't your bariatric program have a scale that can weigh you accurately? This is unacceptable! How are you supposed to focus on a weight loss goal when you don't even have a benchmark! GRR!
BLESS YOUR HEART... WE HAVE ALL IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER BEEN THERE DONE THAT FOR SURE. FIRST OFF ABOUT THE SCALES... I NEVER HAD ONE THAT WOULD WEIGH ME EITHER. SO I WAS SO HUMILIATED AND WOULD GET MY HUSBAND TO DROP ME OFF AT THE CURB OF KMART AND I WOULD WEIGH AT THERE BIG SCALE THEY HAD RIGHT AT THE DOOR AS YOU WALK IN THE STORE. AND YES FELT SO STUPID WITH PEOPLE WALKING BY ME GALKING IM SURE AT THE FAT LADY WEIGHING... BUT AS YOU SEE THAT SOON STOPPED... EVERYTHING CHANGES IF YOU CAN JUST HANG IN THERE. AND NO I WASNT THE POSTER CHILD FOR DOING GREAT BEFORE SURGERY. KIX ON THE OTHER HAND,,, HECK HEY... SHE DONE AMAZING... I WENT TO THE DR AND THEY WANTED ME TO LOSE 60LBS BEFORE I CAME BACK TO SEE THEM... THAT WAS LIKE TELLING A CRACK HEAD TO JUST HAVE A LIL A DAY AND GET OFF OF IT... I KNOW THE REASONS ARE SO MAJOR AND THEY WANT THE LIVER TO SHRINK AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. SO CAN SEE THERE POINT BUT JEEZ IT CAN BE SO DISCOURAGING AT THE SAME TIME.. TAKING IT ONE DAY AT A TIME IS THE BEST ANYONE CAN DO... DONT THINK OF THE BIG PICTURE. GET ON HERE AND READ, READ, READ ALL THE PROFILES OF PEOPLES LIVES CHANGING SINCE SURGERY. THAT IS WHAT KEPT ME SANE.AND BY THE WAY... THATS NOT WHINNING WHEN YOU TALK TO US,,,,I WANT TO BE QUEEN OF THAT!! LOL
HUGS MARGE
) I, too, understand the reasons for the pre-op weight loss, and will do what they need when they tell me what that is, but if it is 50-60 lbs, I know I will have a huge freak out. But I am going to wait until I know before doing that. Right now I am just trying to change my behaviors back to what they were when I was taking care of myself. Marge I just have to ask you, do you mean to right with a southern accent? I get such a kick out of your posts, since I never get to hear that up here in New England. - Julie 
250lbs gone! 410/160... Life's sweet! 
