Letting go of fears - bathing suit talk

  Well, I did it this weekend.  I actually took off my shorts at the beach in public!      I never thought I'd ever be comfortable doing it, but I actually felt ok in my new suit. Of course the wind was blowing my skirt up and exposing the jiggly mess to everyone who walked by. And, we walked a mile and a half in the wet sand and rough surf.  I would never have done the walk last year for two reasons:  #1  BEACHED WHALE (that's what I felt like)  #2 wouldn't have had the stamina to walk that far.   It was a good, fast paced walk and in that wet sand with the wave****ting us, I think I got a good workout from it. So, yes, there is a bathing suit life after weight loss surgery for those of us brave enough.  Now, had I taken a look my rear view, I probably wouldn't have done it, but I didn't have that look and I'm not going to.  I like the freedom of walking down the beach holding my husband's hand all the way!

I do think about life in a bathing suit at a smaller size.  I love the water and I have not let my size stop me from enjoying it.  I just got a big all swim dress and shorts and headed out.  I know I look terrible in it and there is no way to make it better, so I suck it up and go.  Now - shedding a 150 pounds might be different.  I'd bet I am going to be more self conscienous about it.  It doesn't make sense that I can get on the beach or public pool at this size and not think twice but lighter and I am going to have issues.  Oh - this is why support groups/systems are soooo important. Congratulations to enjoying the beach with your husband!

Oh, I never let it stop me before, I just tried to hide the mess as much as possible.  I love the beach, water, river, lake, anything!