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Thanks lady, it does help to know I'm not alone. I know so many people who food is not an issue, but I know they have other issues I wouldn't even want to deal with. So I guess it evens out in the long run. Still, it would be nice to, one day, not even think about food. What a weird feeling that would be!
Hi, PJ. Just wanted to send you some love and positive energy as you continue to face down your demons. I'm working on some issues as well, and recently found myself turning to a book called The Four Agreements by Miguel Ruiz. A friend gave me the book several years ago and I skimmed it, but wasn't really ready to work on making these agreements part of my life. I've recently been drawn back to the work, and I think it's going to help me find me, if that makes any sense. I've spent so long being what other people want me to be, meeting other people's expectations, saying what I'm supposed to say, doing what I'm supposed to do, all the while belittling myself with negative thoughts and negative energy, that I've lost sight of who I am, what makes me me, what's important to me, and what's non-negotiable. Although this book cannot tell me those things, it's helping me parse things out for myself. Anyway, I've included the four agreements in case you are interested - the book is available at amazon.com and I've also seen it in Border's and Barnes & Nobles.
agreement 1
agreement 2
agreement 3
agreement 4
Always do your best - Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any cir****tance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.
agreement 1
Be impeccable with your word - Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
agreement 2
Don’t take anything personally - Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.
agreement 3
Don’t make assumptions - Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
agreement 4
Always do your best - Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any cir****tance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret. You know, those seem to common sense but when you get down to it, they are hard! Thanks for those, a good reminder to take care of myself first.
These demons are exhausting - right now it's just taking it a step at a time... actually, a minute at a time. I have to talk myself through all my food cravings and it wears on you. I do know though that it does get easier. I've dealt with too many other issues (depression especially) that took many years to understand but I am so much better now for having put the time in.
Thanks again hon - big hugs
These demons are exhausting - right now it's just taking it a step at a time... actually, a minute at a time. I have to talk myself through all my food cravings and it wears on you. I do know though that it does get easier. I've dealt with too many other issues (depression especially) that took many years to understand but I am so much better now for having put the time in.
Thanks again hon - big hugs
kathsum
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on 8/4/08 12:48 am - San Antonio, TX
on 8/4/08 12:48 am - San Antonio, TX
Well, back on NuvaRing, and finally saw a scale change (phew).
Starting weight - 440
Surgery weight - 405
Last 3 weeks - 269
This week - 267 (-2 lbs)
Last week was just terrible emotion-wise, I still want to cry just thinking about it, and with the heaviest and longest period I've ever had, but the weekend was good. We spent some time at our friend's house Sat, ate at a hole in the wall Italian joint that was spectacularly good and very packed. Then we played video games and Apples to Apples. Its really funny how the pairings work out because my husband is very very similar to Barbi in personality, attitude, etc. I am very very very very very similar to her boyfriend Joe, like to a disturbing degree. We all laughed a ton, our stomachs hurt from laughiing so much. It was nice to blow off some steam. Sunday I cleaned. And cleaned. And cleaned. It was nice to wake up to a pristine, organized, deliciously clean smelling apartment though. So much so that we actually made our bed this morning. We never make our bed unless we have parents visiting. My husband was a trooper, I let him call in but he had to help me clean. I worked him hard! He told me last night he wished he'd gone to work instead LOL. Being on your knees scrubbing the kitchen floor will do that to a man. And hanging things. We had several pieces of art that we hadn't hung, one is this crazy big metal wall sculpture we got for Christmas. It was a pain in the butt to hang it over the fire place. Straight. And its heavy. We had to buy special screw things because the studs there are weirdly placed. It looks super-cool though!
Starting weight - 440
Surgery weight - 405
Last 3 weeks - 269
This week - 267 (-2 lbs)
Last week was just terrible emotion-wise, I still want to cry just thinking about it, and with the heaviest and longest period I've ever had, but the weekend was good. We spent some time at our friend's house Sat, ate at a hole in the wall Italian joint that was spectacularly good and very packed. Then we played video games and Apples to Apples. Its really funny how the pairings work out because my husband is very very similar to Barbi in personality, attitude, etc. I am very very very very very similar to her boyfriend Joe, like to a disturbing degree. We all laughed a ton, our stomachs hurt from laughiing so much. It was nice to blow off some steam. Sunday I cleaned. And cleaned. And cleaned. It was nice to wake up to a pristine, organized, deliciously clean smelling apartment though. So much so that we actually made our bed this morning. We never make our bed unless we have parents visiting. My husband was a trooper, I let him call in but he had to help me clean. I worked him hard! He told me last night he wished he'd gone to work instead LOL. Being on your knees scrubbing the kitchen floor will do that to a man. And hanging things. We had several pieces of art that we hadn't hung, one is this crazy big metal wall sculpture we got for Christmas. It was a pain in the butt to hang it over the fire place. Straight. And its heavy. We had to buy special screw things because the studs there are weirdly placed. It looks super-cool though!
We have gone through H E L L with this bathroom redo. My sister was nearly suicidal all weekend as she and the contractor rushed to get everything done before he left for his fishing trip. The bathroom is done and I'm just waiting for her to move back into it and get her slobbish, hair shedding self out of the main bathroom! 
We didn't do anything special over the weekend, the weather has been too darned hot to go anywhere.
My food week went much better. After being disgusted at allowing my eating to get out of whack, I resolved to practice mindful eating and get back to a regular exercise routine.
For those of you who journal and need an excellent journaling tool that is not online, I use the DietMinder journal. I needed a tool that allowed me to journal my food easily, and this works for me. I bought mine on Amazon if anyone is interested in checking it out. I use it to journal my food and also use Fitday to make sure my nutrition information is listed accurately.
Props to Kellie, who told me that journaling is the way to continue losing after the "window" closes, and a pox on me for not implementing this sooner!
Beginning weight: 530 lb
Surgery weight: 407 lb
Last week: 228 lb
This week: 221 lb
Kix
We didn't do anything special over the weekend, the weather has been too darned hot to go anywhere.
My food week went much better. After being disgusted at allowing my eating to get out of whack, I resolved to practice mindful eating and get back to a regular exercise routine.
For those of you who journal and need an excellent journaling tool that is not online, I use the DietMinder journal. I needed a tool that allowed me to journal my food easily, and this works for me. I bought mine on Amazon if anyone is interested in checking it out. I use it to journal my food and also use Fitday to make sure my nutrition information is listed accurately.
Props to Kellie, who told me that journaling is the way to continue losing after the "window" closes, and a pox on me for not implementing this sooner!
Beginning weight: 530 lb
Surgery weight: 407 lb
Last week: 228 lb
This week: 221 lb
Kix
My turn!! I'll keep this short and sweet as I'll post another post about my update, upcoming knee surgery and how I broke almost every rule this weekend...........
Surgery Weight: 440
Last Week: 302.5
This Week: 300.00
Week Loss: -2.50
Total Lost: -140
Pounds to Goal of 170: 130
I'm having surgery this Wednesday and won't be around a scale for quite some time. Some of you are having a scale separation; I think mine will be more like a long distance relationship with my scale - we still get along and like each other, we just need to be apart right now. LOL
Jana
Surgery Weight: 440
Last Week: 302.5
This Week: 300.00
Week Loss: -2.50
Total Lost: -140
Pounds to Goal of 170: 130
I'm having surgery this Wednesday and won't be around a scale for quite some time. Some of you are having a scale separation; I think mine will be more like a long distance relationship with my scale - we still get along and like each other, we just need to be apart right now. LOL
Jana
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