Calorie Countdown - Late Friday, slept in, now what shall I eat?

There's an old Dana Carvey stand up routine "I slept until noon and I'm still TIRED, I think I'll go to Starbucks and get a frappucino!" That is me today, except I cant afford starbucks.

My husband got up at nine and I asked him to wake me up in 30 more minutes. I woke up at 12:30 to find him cleaning our office. Woot! Its a good thing I was planning to work from home today.  I broke down in tears yesterday when I was trying to find something in our office (hormones, low blood sugar, insanity? I know not which) Basically my skewed logic suggested to me that if I can't keep my office clean I should never have children, I will be an unfit mother.

I cried a lot about being a failure and then he fed me and I felt better. I should have checked the sugar, I would BET it was low.  I am not a failure, I will be an ok mom, but geez I am an unorganized slob. Life broke me.

Food?

I guess I should think about that. One thing I like about posting this every day is that otherwise I would probably not eat breakfast or possibly lunch sometimes. This forces me to have a semblance of a plan each day, gives me something to follow, and gasp, some organization in my life.

We went to a hockey game last night and it was $1 hot dog night. Right in my price range. I ate one and about 1/3 of the bun. I was full and miserable and nauseas for the entire game. I couldn't get the taste out of my mouth. Blech. Hot dogs are out.  I used to love Hebrew National but it tasted pretty gross after the first bite or two.

Today's plan:

B - tea with honey, and then a little later 1/4c shredded cheese on a piece of whole grain toast with roasted green chile

L - chicken and veggie soup, like a chicken minestrone sans the pasta

D - the sauce from spaghetti (with lots of veggies and some lean ground beef) on top of some zucchini and with some parmesan on it

S - 16oz mootopia, maybe with protein or NSA CIB added if I want something sweeter

I'm not sure if I'd like it if hubby cleaned our office, he'd throw everything away!  Glad to hear yours is doing a good thing though!

Stopped at Whole Paycheck for a few things after the DR this morning and then hubby took me to breakfast before I went to work. Nice morning.He's now home baking the sweet potatoes for my casserole (family Christmas dinner tomorrow, while out of towners are here).

Pre B - SF NF Eggnog Latte - about 1/2, too nervous

B - 1/3 ham and cheese omelet and 1/4 slice sour dough toast

S - banana

L - cottage cheese and Splenda peaches

S - White Chocolate Cherry Chip Comfort Bar

D - Turkey meatloaf, veggies of some sort (brussel sprouts maybe)

S - sliced mangos

I loved the days when I could sleep late - now 9 am is late for me ... argh!!!  I guess I set my body clock and cannot find the dial to adjust it.

B - decaf coffee, kashi bar, satsuma
L - grilled chicken salad
S - Activia Light yogurt
D - sushi roll; veggies with dip

I love sleeping in on the weekends - except I feel like I play "catch up" with food all day. 

B- Hot Chocolate Max
L - Left over steak and mushrooms
D - Mock Chicken Parm and I am going to attempt some salad (wish me luck - lol)
S - Hot Chocolate Max

Today makes 3 weeks since surgery.  Things still seem to be going very well.  I dread the first time I throw up, but have experienced severe pain to the chest if I drink/eat something fast or don't chew enough.

B:  SF pudding
S:  1 piece string cheese
L:  cottage cheese/mashed potatoes
D:   TBD


Happy Friday!

I can't sleep in past 8.  That's like the latest my body will let me sleep. 

Today was good.

B - cheerios
L - roast beef and swiss cheese 1/2 bun
S - cookie dough - 2 pieces
D - seafood nachos.
    I had 3 shrimp with it, some crab, grouper and scallops.  Could only eat 4 chips 'cause I was worried about my protein for the day.

Also had a cosmo before dinner too.

B: Proti Diet Cereal Bar
L: 2 Chicken of the Sea Tuna Cups on lettuce with FF asian sesame dressing
     4 oz greek yogurt with 1/4 cup Kashi Go Lean
S: 1/2 Low Sugar Detour Bar (truly tasty-- I got 13 for free with GNC coupon deal---WHEE!)
D: 6 oven baked crunchy mozzarella sticks (use Fiber One, crushed and italian seasoning-- recipe on RNY board) with pizza sauce (OMFG YUM!)
S: 6 oz 0% greek yogurt with 1/2 scoop Unjury
S: 2 oz 50% Cabot Cheddar with vidalia onion mustard
S: Cup of Only 8 Frozen Yogurt with 0 cal chocolate sauce

1,200 cals

28 fat

110.6 carbs

136.4 protein

I was having another night of no sleep...surfing the site...when I came across your post about the feeling that you would be an unfit mother...and it struck something in me.....I am still in the 6 month window of supervised diet before surgery so I know I am not going through so many of things you all are that have had the surgery....but boy....this one...I can relate on....I have a 8 year old son....and daily I think about myself being unfit.....there are so many things that I want to do with him and places I want to take him ....I just constantly feel bad about it.......when you mentioned the not being able to find something in the office......it hit me too...because my house is a complete disaster.....not dirty....just so unorganized....another thing for me to feel bad about....I look at it thinking ...man I should get up off my butt and get stuff all organized....I have made several trips to the container store...and have all of the supplies....but it just doesn't seem to get done....

Then I pick my son up from school...and the first thing I see is the big smile on his face when he sees me....I see his friends and teachers telling him bye.....see how happy and curious about life....and it makes me think...well...I must be doing something right......he's a good boy....the light of my life.....and then a little voice in the back of my head says.....so what if you aren't organized....so what if you are the fattest mom on the hay ride with him....or at the Christmas concert....that little voice tells me...I am doing a good job.....but it is hard to get caught up in thinking that we have to be perfect in every aspect of life....when we fail at something...I think that we are afraid that we may start to fail in other areas.....I don't know....sorry...I know I am rambling....but I just wanted to tell you....just from reading your posts....I just know that you will be a wonderful mother when that time comes....and it really shows how much you care about other people on this board......don't be so hard on yourself!!!!!!!! 

Jaimee