I bought a book and Wow learned something
Last week I blought the book WLS for Dummies and found out that I am what is termed Super Morbidly Obese, now I knew that I was FAT but had no clue that I had a super power.
When I read the term for the first time it took a little while to soak in and then I realised that it frightened me. Fortunately there is no catagory above SMO so I guess I can only go down once i have surgery. And I promise only to use this super power for good... I won't purposly sit on any small children rendering them unable to get away while i sing(note that I sound like cats in heat when I sing... this is not a good thing) I will try my best not to break any furniture, or bump into any doors or knock any little(skinny people) over when I walk by...lol
LOL - hello Kim! Fellow SuperHeroChicklet here, myself!
Ive always detested the term OBESE, much less the word MORBIDLY in front of it - not long after that, with a BMI of 59 going into my surgery - I became SUPER too (oh joy!).
Hang in there - it's just a temporary phase in your life and it's just a matter of time before all of that changes for you.
- Lei
Wow! Lei, I wondered what happened to you! When I first came here, it was YOUR profile that I first saved to my favorites, read and re-read a dozen times a day for several weeks... When I had hit the worst point in my life, and felt all hope was lost, I found your story... I was losing myself under 335 lbs of flesh, a broken knee, a bad back, panic attacks, and a morbid resignation to life...
YOUR pictures were my inspiration to discover that there really IS hope... Now I have hope that one day I will be able to walk without pain... one day I too will be able to sleep without pain, one day I will be able to tye my shoes without gasping for air... one day I will wear clothes that have NO resemblance to tents or "Moo Moo" gowns... one day I will wear shorts in public!!! And most of all, I held onto the hope that one day I would be able to play with my children... and then... somewhere along the way.... I lost a little, and I decided to not wait anymore, and I take my kids to the waterpark and I sit in the 8 inch deep water with my 23 month old... I manage to get around a bit, and I'm not sitting inside while the whole family is outside together, without me.... so, some of my "one day" dreams have already started to come through!
Lei, I cannot thank you enough... if you only knew how huge of an impact you have had on me... and I'm guessing you really didn't even know....
wow... (ok, gonna stop now... bawling as I type
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All I can say is.... THANK YOU!!!
G'morning {{{{{{{{{{ KAT }}}}}}}}}}}}}
First let me say, I'm SO SORRY it took me so long to reply to your absolutely wonderful and heartfelt post. Talk about bringing a lot of positive emotions to the surface, you definitely managed to do that with your very kind words. I had every intention of writing back to you last night but wanted to wait till I finished reading your profile first.
You have a very insightful profile, FULL of WISDOM. If you ever doubt yourself or your decision to pursue weight loss surgery and your new found life/energy - go back and READ YOUR OWN WORDS, hon. You sure don't need to find inspiration in others - it's all right there in you! Especially your May 23, 2005 UPDATE.
WOW - talk about some very POWERFUL and inspiring words. Just a small portion of it is below........
You wrote: "And when I stop and think of WHY I have this life... it's because I refused to take "can't" and "no" for an answer... I MADE things happen because I knew I could... I am a survivor!"
Yes yes yes, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR and you will succeed and you will regain your health, energy, life and you WILL be able to do all the things you've listed as your 'goals' -- including spending more quality time with your children and actively participating in there day to day life. (absolutely ADORABLE kids, btw)
I love your overall style KAT - you have the positive attitude, determination and the tenacity to MAKE things happen in life and that in itself will make you a complete success with your newest endeavor: Weight Loss Surgery.
This surgery was an absolute MIRACLE for me, it was a second chance to live life again, rather then just existing. I will forever be grateful and shame on me if I ever lose sight of that. Thanks again for reaching out to me, Kat, and sharing such warm, caring and loving thoughts - you've left a huge smile on my face, but most importantly in my heart.
Lots of positive thoughts, prayers and vibes coming your way for a successful October surgery.
Hugs - Lei