Sooooooooo, where do I begin?
Hello friends ~ 
First, THANK YOU to all *****sponded to my earlier rant!!!
Secondly, IM SO VERY SORRY that I felt the need to get all pissy and dramatic on ya'll, lol, now I feel like a chump.... but an adork'able chump, right?
I even KNOW better then to get "emotional" courtesy of the keyboard. If I'd taken my own advice and calmed my childish pissy butt down for two seconds, I woulda' realized how foolish their email was and dropped it at that.
Bottom-line, I should'a decompressed! I would have then avoided placing the burden (my need for validation) on ALL of you! Amazing how CLEAR it all appears when you walk away for a bit.
I TRULY was NOT looking for praise (when I sent the "Insensitive, moi?" post) - however, I think I'd reached a point where I needed OTHERS to validate the absolute ludicrousness of the email I'd rec'd. I lost track of how many times I shook my head in disbelief while reading it. A rotating fan had nothing on the breezes I was stirrin'!
A very good friend of mine (Carole in VaBeach) reminded me of another email I rec'd last year. When I initially rec'd it, I was LIVID, angry, hurt, upset, aggra'd, ... have I missed any descriptive's here, Carole? The email called me a FAKE, an imposter, bull**** artist, liar, blah blah blah - because it was OBVIOUS to them that my "before and after pictures" were NOT the same person. I'm very passionate about keeping things REAL and HONEST in my life, so to question my integrity cut deep. Not only were they absolutely sure that I was deceitful, but they could prove it and I was going to be exposed for the fraud that I was.
LOL - um, the "Top-secret 007" proof? 
My eyes were WAY too big in the after photos AND the mole that was on my neck in my before pic's wasn't there at goal. [sigh] to this day, I wish Id never replied to their email. How fun would it have been if they'd EXPOSED me as threatened, just to find out Id had the mole surgically removed post-op?
MORAL of THAT STORY: With time, anger dissipates and now Im forever in the morons debt. Why? ...because every time I think of my "traveling mole" It makes me laugh. Whod'a thunk it?
Anyway, Ive rambled enough, so I'll leave by saying again, THANK YOU, thank you, thank you.
Willow, Amber M., Jesi P., Mary M., Lara M, Nurse Kat, Ruth B, Sister Georgie, and Renee Ramsey
Hugs to all - Lei
Pssst.... Renee Ramsey?!? If you don't mind me asking, where is MORRIS, Ok?? Im coming to Oklahoma at the end of the month and visiting with 4 life long friends (adopted sisters) while Im there. I lived in Tulsa and Claremore for 20 years, give or take a few hours, and it's my second home away from home.
First, THANK YOU to all *****sponded to my earlier rant!!!
Secondly, IM SO VERY SORRY that I felt the need to get all pissy and dramatic on ya'll, lol, now I feel like a chump.... but an adork'able chump, right?
I even KNOW better then to get "emotional" courtesy of the keyboard. If I'd taken my own advice and calmed my childish pissy butt down for two seconds, I woulda' realized how foolish their email was and dropped it at that.
Bottom-line, I should'a decompressed! I would have then avoided placing the burden (my need for validation) on ALL of you! Amazing how CLEAR it all appears when you walk away for a bit.
I TRULY was NOT looking for praise (when I sent the "Insensitive, moi?" post) - however, I think I'd reached a point where I needed OTHERS to validate the absolute ludicrousness of the email I'd rec'd. I lost track of how many times I shook my head in disbelief while reading it. A rotating fan had nothing on the breezes I was stirrin'!
A very good friend of mine (Carole in VaBeach) reminded me of another email I rec'd last year. When I initially rec'd it, I was LIVID, angry, hurt, upset, aggra'd, ... have I missed any descriptive's here, Carole? The email called me a FAKE, an imposter, bull**** artist, liar, blah blah blah - because it was OBVIOUS to them that my "before and after pictures" were NOT the same person. I'm very passionate about keeping things REAL and HONEST in my life, so to question my integrity cut deep. Not only were they absolutely sure that I was deceitful, but they could prove it and I was going to be exposed for the fraud that I was.
LOL - um, the "Top-secret 007" proof?
My eyes were WAY too big in the after photos AND the mole that was on my neck in my before pic's wasn't there at goal. [sigh] to this day, I wish Id never replied to their email. How fun would it have been if they'd EXPOSED me as threatened, just to find out Id had the mole surgically removed post-op?
MORAL of THAT STORY: With time, anger dissipates and now Im forever in the morons debt. Why? ...because every time I think of my "traveling mole" It makes me laugh. Whod'a thunk it?
Anyway, Ive rambled enough, so I'll leave by saying again, THANK YOU, thank you, thank you.
Willow, Amber M., Jesi P., Mary M., Lara M, Nurse Kat, Ruth B, Sister Georgie, and Renee Ramsey
Hugs to all - Lei
Pssst.... Renee Ramsey?!? If you don't mind me asking, where is MORRIS, Ok?? Im coming to Oklahoma at the end of the month and visiting with 4 life long friends (adopted sisters) while Im there. I lived in Tulsa and Claremore for 20 years, give or take a few hours, and it's my second home away from home. 
(she of the traveling mole),
We cant help but love you!!! Youre a great inspiration and an 
Hey woman,
So, here I am after not being very board-active for a couple days, trying to catch up. Instead of typing on the earlier posts, thought I'd summarize some feelings on the subject here.
First of all, there is no need to apologize, this is what the boards are for, whatever support you need at the time, be it venting or not! I'm so glad you were able to sit back, re-analize things, and move on. Oh and thanks for sharing the mole recollection, I hadn't heard that one LOL.. You had a mole? Guess I'm not that observant lmao.
Anyway, I just wanted to put a few thoughts down that ran through my mind while catching up on these posts. I remember being over 400 pounds, bmi 64.9. I remember all the feelings that went along with my "cant-do's" throughout each day. Yes I could move, not far, definitely not long and never without any pain. It was very limiting, and I hope to never experience that again. Emotionally I would beat myself up, because of the limitations and pain. It was horribly depressing. I would also bottle up the anger I had with myself, and take it out on others at times, when it wasn't deserved. Lashing out for no good reasons, to subside my internal pain maybe? It never helped, and put wedges between those that I loved. It was all due to my desire to want to do things, have a life, enjoy the world, and my inability.
Anway, i'm rambling on here, and trying to come to a point, but you know me, sometimes the words wont come out. I think if you re-read the "ridiculous email" you might be able to turn it around to think that maybe its some sort of cry for help, but vented in a way that comes across wrong. Maybe that person desperately wants to move and enjoy life, but doesn't/cant allow themselves to, and is taking it out on you via email. Not saying its right, definitely its not, just that I understand how sometimes emotions go awry in the heat of self-loathing.. does that make any sense?
Girl, we know where you've come from.. lived the life, earned the right to tell it like it is. You keep doing your thing, being the honest forthright open loving person you are, and you'll be doing yourself and everyone that has the opportunity to meet you a great service!
I loves ya
Wendy
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