I'm tired

I am so tired. I'm tired of the pain in my feet, ankles, knees, legs and hips. I'm tired of only being able to stand for a hour and a half before the pain begins. I'm tired of being unable to find clothes that fit. I'm tired of feeling like everyone in the room is starring at me. I'm tired of wanting a relationship with a man but feeling unlovable because of my size. I'm tired of not having the energy to go shopping with friends. I'm tired of being short of breath with the simplest of task. I"m so so tired..... I want my surgery approved and over with so I can lose the weight and begin to live!!! I want to live instead of simply existing!!! Sandra A.

((((((((((Sandra))))))))) I am right there with you Sandra! I feel all those things and then some. Standing, even for 10 minutes, my hips start to hurt and I need to sit down. I can't wait until I have my surgery and can get back to living again. Just know you are not alone in this. We are all here with you, and for you! Huggs, Ruth

Boy Sandra, does that ring a bell. I LOVE to shop and can't even do that anymore. It takes all I have to buy groceries. I even get my husband to go ALOT of the time. Im wiped out by the time we even get there from just getting ready to go. My feet swell and knees's GOD!!!! My husband is gonna be 57 this Sunday and is 12 yrs older than me and can run circles around me. It is a whole nother life being like this.My house is two story and I get up in the morning and come down and dont go back up for ANYTHING till going to bed. Ill clean upstairs only while Im up there. The 14 steps kill me. Yes, Im scared, but YES im more scared to be in this body just existing. hugs margaret

Sandra, it is like you have read my mind. It has gotten so bad for me that I can't stand for more than a minute or two at a time (legs and feet looking like two hot air balloons) and if I try to stand or walk, I feel like I'm going to collapse and die right there. I buy everything online... even groceries because I can't make it throught the grocery store... oohhhh how I would love it to go to a real store... and buy real clothes (you know, the kind with zippers, and buttons, and a bra that has two clasps instead of 20!) I get excited just thinking of it!! I have spent my 25th birthday making arrangements with my PCP for a wheelchair and a handicap sticker... oh... I yearn for this sugery!!! I can picture it now... Me, and my boney little butt... with my sexy low rider jeans and a barely-there tank top cruising down the road in a little sports car (that I can actually fit in)... music blaring ... body movin'... going to the Jersey shore on a hot, sunny day. That's right gals... I'm taking my SMOKIN' BODY to the beach! I am probably the only hawaiian girl without the hawaiian glow and that will be a changin'!!!!!! lol! Here's to, "THE SKINNY DAYS." May we all have plenty of em'.... SOON!

Sipele, Dont think youre going anywhere without us!! We can all go to the beach together,right? And if i'm still pre-op when youre skinny..........you can rent a UHaul to tow behind your sports car. I'll be there to stomp on any girls in string bikinis. Take care, Sipele ((((((HUGS)))))) willby

I wouldn't think of going anywhere without, "yous guys!" (((Hugs))) SipeleK

hi sandra: your post touched my heart, sandra, and brought back memories of eight months ago. i, too, could add many, many more but am choosing to not do so. my prayers are with you, girl. i hope you get your surgery approved in short order and your surgery is an uneventful one, like my own. i still have times when i've done too much - still weigh over 300 - but the point is, i'm able to do something now and that makes a world of difference. my prayer for you is for hope and a new life. hugs to you dorthe

Sandra, First off a (((((((((((((((BIG HUG))))))))))))))). I'm sorry that youre tired. But I have an idea. Lets all have a GREAT BIG slumber party and refuse to get out of bed until we have a surgery date!!!! Sometimes I feel that if I have to live in this body ONE MORE DAY....i'm going tomyself. OH and do you know what I love BEST OF ALL? The stress incontinence. Snneeze..pee. Laugh..pee.Cough..pee.Breathe..pee. I just thank my lucky starsthat I have you guys!! willby

Its so funny how you always think you're the only one with these problems as a preop I know i did my legs and back use to ache so bad that i would want to cry just from frustration. The last month before my wls I barely left my home it was just to difficult to try to walk.I don't know where you are in your journey but I want you to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel and it will be so worth the wait. I'm already toasting your new life Hang in there Patti -84 pds 137 to go.

Sandra, I know exactly how you feel. That is how I felt last February, March and April. Then in May I had my surgery! I really feel great. I've lost 82.5 lbs and only have 2.5 lbs to go to finally be under 300 lbs! Woohoo! I can walk without a cane. I even went on a mountain hike for 2 miles up a really steep slope on my vacation last week. I had to rest a couple of times, but, the point is, I made it!!!! Here's hoping you can feel as good as I do soon! Lori 384/301.5/170