Wilby and any one else

I would like you to read my respond to Yesterday was the day.. I hope it can help someone. Amy

It did Amy! Thank you. Huggs, Ruth

oh amy, That was a beautiful passage. It takes a lot to get me choked up.........but that one did it. Thanks for taking the time to print it and post it. Its such a good comparison to the before and after of our journey. You know what? I'm not sure I'm as scared of the surgery as I am of being different than any way I have ever known. i have only known big. If i get smaller i might be less powerful (in my ownmind) thanks again, amy ((((((((((big hug))))))))))) willby

Hey Willby, I know exactly what you mean. I am afraid of being thin. I have never been "small" and I am so comfortable in my body this size. I am attractive now and I have no problems getting mens attention and I am happy with my appearance. Why change something you like... because I want to walk in the future! Because I want to be able to travel! Because I want to see my kids grow up! Because I want to dance at my daughters wedding! I want to show all those people who told me I would never be thin that I am! And Because I want out of this self imposed prison of pain. But I can so relate to you! I might not be me if I lose the weight. My therapist told me that, there is a reason they make you go thru counselling! lol I am so scared of changing but I am gonna do it. I have to do it. Hugs back to you, Amy

Wow, you said everything i have thought for the past zillion years, I too am scared about after and what I will be like. I have so much resentment towards some people that teased and ignored me, but I want to walk my daughter down the isle next July 29 and I am hoping for surgery in Dec. so I have plenty of time to adjust. I want to go out and flaunt my new me, But I still worry there won't be a new me, afraid something will happen and the surgery will fall through or something will hang it up. Seems everything has gone so smoothly...