not a post for the faint hearted to read - kinda long, too

i haven't been very forthcoming about my recent issues and for that i am truly sorry. it felt so much better to at least be able to talk about it with all the caribou people this morning. thanks, ladies, i appreciate your listening to me and letting me air my concerns. ;-0 i'm sceduled for surgery on monday, 11/7. since way before wls surgery i've had issues with backaches, cramping, clotting, flooding periods. my gyno told me that once i had lost some of my weight i should come back and she would fix me up. at that point in time i had a fibroid attached to the right side of my uterus, approx 8 or 9 cm - rather large - should have been removed, but i couldn't lay on my back long enough for the mri, much less the surgery. so i went for wls, dropped 100 lbs, and was still having issues with the backaches, cramps,... the gyno re-evaluated my situation. the fibroid has grown in the past year (now 12 cm), the backaches have worsened, the cramps still suck. she also found a polyp and chronic endometriosis. so i'm set for surgery on monday. yesterday i saw my pcp for pre-op exam and she tells me the reason i'm having issues with my constipation - in spite of the milk of mag, benefiber, psyllium, correctol, prunes, you name it - is because i have what's called a rectocele. a tear or weakening in the muscle wall between the vagina and the rectum. so my lower colon (rectum) is trying to push through my vagina. when i need to have a bowel movement, i literally reach in there, pu**** back where it belongs, and then the feces can come out. TOLD YOU IT WAS GRAPHIC. since i'm already having surgery 'in that area', i can just tell the gyno about it and she should be able to repair it at the same time. i'll just be walkin funny for awhile, i guess. so, to top all of this info off - i get to do another bowel cleansing tomorrow in prep for monday. remember that gross, gross stuff we all had to drink and then make buddies with the toilet. that'll be me tomorrow. wish me luck, gang. i know, for a fact, that i'll be glad then it's all said and done. maybe i won't be so 'full of it' afterwords. LOL hugs to all dorthe

Oh Dorothy My heart goes out to you - prayers are with you - hope you feel better soon. You'll feel like a whole new woman soon!!! Good luck B

Dorthe I am sorry to read that, you are going through this!! You will be in my prayers!!! I hope everything goes well, Monday!! *smoochies* ~NEVER SURRENDER~ ~T~

Yay, TT, we get to see your pretty face!! Myra

Dorthe, That sounds so painful, I am sorry you have had to go through all of this. I hope they are able to resolve everything with this surgery and you are feeling better soon. Take care. Karyn

SENDING GOOD THOUGHTS AND WISHES FOR A SPEEDY RECOVERY. SANDRA A.

My thoughts and prayers will be with you on Monday, I sure hope this puts an end to all your pain and aches!! Hang tough, you'll be in better shape real soon!!! Much love, Carol V.

Its been a long hard road to wellness but at least you're headed that way! You did the hard part and lost the weight... hang in there it has got to get better!!! WHY do you think everything has to do with POOP?? Like surgery isn't bad enough and we're not upset and nervous as it is.. the dr's make us poop for a whole day on top of everything else we're troubled with.... Sorry just my own little rant... Get well soon and keep your eye on the prize!!!! I'll be thinking of you and praying for you as well.

Dorthe, Your poor thing .I am so sorry you are going through this.I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers...Dawn

Dorthe: Sweetie, I'm soo sorry you have to go through this. I hope that once this is all "behind you", you will not be experiencing all this pain. You will be in my thoughts and get well soon. Keep up posted on your recovery. Carmella