Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Today is my 2 week surgiversary. Even though on the very day of surgery, as I was being prepped, I called my entire family into the room and announced "I'm not going to do this". They all reminded me of how long I had wanted this to happen. For 5 days after the surgery, I was SO upset that I had done it. I wanted to eat! I wanted my old stomcah back! I needed my drug of choice! I could never ever get all of that fluid in! Everyone who ever told me they were happy to have done this was lying! I thought life as I had known it was over! Today, 2 weeks later, I'm still nervous that my pouch is going to "go wild" (like those girls on spring break in that video). But.......the back pain that has been my constant companion for the last 10 years is gone. I can wake up and walk without bending over like an old woman. I have about 5% of my self-confidence back (5% is a good thing compared to 0). I am starting ot see that its all a trade off. I trade binging on food for a non-hurting back. I trade eating donuts for no snoring. Hmmmmmm...so this is how it works. Ok....I can do this. I could never have come this far without the support and fellowship I have found on this Board. willby thinsoon

We love you and are very happy you did what you needed to do to save your life in a few weeks you will be in heaven but will be broke you cant keep your self in clothes I buy something one day and 2 days later its to big learning to eat and drink and all that takes time and I still have not got it down right yet dont want to eat dont feel like eatting please dont make me eat lol but we can do this we did this for a life and I am slow getting there and you will to love you guys shelley

Good Morning! Ya know, Im almost 3 months out now and I still have days when I question my decision to have WLS.. There are days when I would give anything to be able to eat whatever I want without fear... But it passes.. and then it comes back.. I guess I was (and still am) more attached to food then I thought.. There are the great things that come though.. I can paint my toe nails again!! Without struggling, without having to hold my breathe, and without feeling like a contortionist.. I too no longer have back pain all the time.. My hips and knees no longer hurt all the time.. and I have more energy then Ive had in years.. I wish I could have gotten healthy without WLS but I couldnt.. I tried and tried but couldnt do it.. So I did what I felt was best for me... I may not always be thrilled with my new pouch but atleast I have the tool to reach the goal of being healthy now.. It gets better as time goes on... Without this board and everyone on it I would have been lost.. Even the smallest words of encouragement means so much!! This board is the best.. Amber

I have been on here for just about 2-3 weeks.. I have read but not actually posted for awhile longer.. I am waiting on my surgery date after I loose 30 pounds, but this site IS SOMETHING ELSE. You girls make my day. I can get on here after a bad night sleep and feel better about myself. If I eat more than I should, you let me know I am not a failure, that it happens, and thats why we are all here. To help each other , to encourage, be friends, laugh, cry together. AND ITS AWESOME.. Thank you all for being my morning, noon and night these days.. And someday soon I hope, I will be with those of you "on the other side". And for those of you who are waiting like me, "WE WILL GET ER' DONE" Love ya and God Bless Ya' All !!! hugz.... Elaine O.

SEE YOU TRADED YOUR HERSHEY'S FOR ME

Hi Willby, I ditto Candy's response. You traded your donuts for me! And we will be here haunting your new pouch forever LOL. Glad you see the light. Love, Granny Soos

WILLBY..............YOU ROCK.............YOU ARE AWESOME & AMAZING I love your candor and the way you tell the whole truth... You show that the doubts & fear & anger still show up... and you kicked butt and WON!! I am so proud of you!!!!! I hope I can do as well!!! Only 2 weeks out and you're doing so excellent!!! Keep posting to your diary... we'll stay tuned...

Only better things are coming, Willby! You are getting it! Lori 384/280/170

Willby, I am so happy that you are feeling better. You are so right in your way of thinking. Everything in life is about give and take; cause and effect. "Every action has an equal and opposite reaction." When we lived our bad habits we pretty much all know the consequences of those habits. This is something new and the benefit of WLS, in my opinion far out ways the discomfort of food withdrawls that will pop up from time to time. I am just 4 days post op and I feel great, but even so I do miss the sensation of chewing food something awful. I do know that this too will pass and I will eat again. Take care of yourself and stay positive. Kim

Willby, I am sooo proud of you! Bless your heart!!!! I am so happy for you too! Take care! Cindy