difficult night

Elaine, I feel that I am surrounding my self with such positive thoughts right now, in reading all these posts... I am the luckiest person in the world to have found such caring people. I am so used to giving my care, I almost didn't post last night, but I needed support.. and prayed I would not be too bold to ask for it. As for me... God in incharge. I must lean on the strenght that is offered to me! I sure apprecaite your words and for hearing my crys for help! pam

Pam, don't give up on this. I am 5'11'' and weighed 477 pounds. My back hurt so bad I could hardly walk. I had to have help to do everything. I have lost 95 pounds since surgery and I fell like I'm free. The pain is almost gone. I can walk and even went for a short hike. I know the bonds of pain. You are doing the right thing. Find a way to go, you will not regret it. Many prayers.....Debra

Debra, thank you for giving me hope for this pain to be releived through weightloss. I suppose through my suborness I know that loosing great amounts of weight would ease that pain. I was injured in 2002, they could not do an MRI, as I was too big for the open MRI... I lost 70 pounds during that year ... but still did not fit. Guess my belly was just too big. I have since put that weight back on I am sure, but I have not been weighted (my scaled says ERR until I reach 399). With the 70 pounds gone, I had no pain relief.. but I will hope that this WLS will help with great pounds lost. I have always hoped that with wls I could finally have the MRI. I am so excited about your weight loss and your pain level decrease. I am so proud of you. I will not regret this choice I have made. Your prayers are most apprecaited. pam

PLEASE Call a domestic violence counselor... this is abuse like everyone said and you're better than that... Perhaps talking to someone in this field will keep you strong and your advocate can help you with getting to your appts. This will render him POWERLESS... this is why he fears the surgery and you becoming INDEPENDENT.... he wants to stay in control and keep you where he has you.... Before your surgery you can lose that 1st 200lbs of ugly fat and kick him to the curb.... Seriously... I am hurting and upset for you and perhaps just speaking to someone who understands will help you... And of course keep talking to all of us! Your posts are always so uplifting and make me smile. AND should he kick the computer again... there could be a knock on the door and he doesn't want to deal with 10,000,000 angry SMO's....

Dear Wls Chik, my heart is tender after reading your post. At this moment I have been honored to have found so many people who give me such words of wisdom and support. I fear now that the words are so true that they continue to echo in my mind and as I get stronger I will be able to take these empowering words and stand up for myself. I thank you for your post and your caring concern. THANK YOU! pam