Feeling Blue

hi smores, I'm sort of depressed today and I'm not sure why. My husband is away for the weekend and this is the first time Ive been alone since my surgery. I'm sort of scared. And today, I'm hating my pouch and all the things I have to do to make her happy. I miss food! I dont want to have to drink all tha****er. I dont like not having the choice to cheat if I want to. I'm not losing weight even though I'm trying to follow my surgeons program. I just want my old life back. I know it wasnt the greatest......but in hindsight I think I liked it better willby

Willby Sorry you are feeling blue, I wish I had some magic advise for you, but I don't,,,sorry, Just thought I would let you know that I am thinking of you. I have heard people say they have easy days and hard days, this is probably just one of your hard days, and it should get better. Of course, that is easy for me to say, Im pre op,,,but I do worry about those tough days cause I know they are coming for me too. Hang in there.... Vee

Vee, Your such a sweetie trying to make me feel better when I know your anxious yourself. I truly appreciate it and am trying to tell myself that this might just be one of those tough days. take care good luck willby

Hi willby. I am write there with you, I am feeling the exactly the same way each and every day. But it is just your hormones. I have wanted to cheat each and every day, there is cookies on the counter and ice-cream in the freezer. But it will pass and I know that. When I feel like I want to cheat I just have a sugerfree pudding (it is sweat so in my mind I am cheating but I am still following the doctors orders.) I know it sucks right now but we will both get though it. Each and everyday will get better.

Hi Jeremy(((((big hug)))))) thanks for your encouragement. This is hard, huh? A LOT harder than I thought it would be. I guess when everyone said that this wasnt the easy way out.........they werent just saying that. Are you having any trouble with any different food? I havent so far except for Colby cheese. Like I said, I havent lost enough weight yet to be happy about this WLS. I'm mostly just sort of mad cuz I cant eat what I want to. Real mature, right? take care willby

Miss Willby, You have made my day and I can't have you upset on the very day you put smile on my face!!!! I got the cutest card and angel pendant today in the mail from my very special angellette today. Thank you so much !!! That was ohhhhhh soooooo sweet of you and I am so touched by your gesture. Thank You!Thank You!Thank You! So, to cheer you up and thank you once again for the angel... I have decided to sing you a song! Okay first a little warm up...... lalala.............lalala.......lalala.....woooo.........woooo.........wooooo.........ooohhhhhhh....oohhhhhhh......oohhhhhhhhh okay here it goes..... dooobeeedooobeedooo....dooobeeedoooobeeedooo...... Background Music Here: http://www.niehs.nih.gov/kids/lyrics/raindrops.htm If All the Raindrops If all the raindrops Were lemondrops and gumdrops Oh, what a rain that would be! Standing outside, with my mouth open wide Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah If all the raindrops Were lemondrops and gumdrops Oh, what a rain that would be! If all the snowflakes Were candy bars and milkshakes Oh, what a snow that would be! Standing outside, with my mouth open wide Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah If all the snowflakes Were candy bars and milkshakes Oh, what a snow that would be! If all the sunbeams Were bubblegum and ice cream Oh, what a sun that would be! Standing outside, with my mouth open wide Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah If all the sunbeams Were bubblegum and ice cream Oh, what a sun that would be! My dear Willby I hope that helped to cheer you up! It is one of my favorite kid songs and it always puts a smile on my face whenever I hear it. I hope it did the same for you. Lots of love and thanks again! Hugs & Kisses, SipeleK

Sipele, Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I so truly appreciate your song........it DID make me smile! You are the sweetest girl! willby

Willby, Blue is my favorite color! But not my favorite mood for such a wonderful friend. Darn it, Willby, your situation sounds difficult. Perhaps your "usual" pattern is to eat when your husband is gone on a trip? Since this is the first time he is gone.. you are left with your level of comfort and NOW having had surgery no way to satisfy the need. Habits are had to change. YOu mention that all the things you do to make you happy .... you miss food. That is such a realization for you - wow interesting. Such am impact statement. You had this surgery for some reason, yet you had not thought of how to deal with your coping mechism when your feeling blue. Wish I was there to share all the many things I so enjoy about you and to possilbly get a funny movie and share some laughs. If you don't want your water today... ONE day.... then that might be a good way to cheat! hugs... so many hugs and thoughts, Pam

Pam, THANK YOU! I can always count on you for some sage words of wisdom. I DO miss food! And so far, its the only thing I've ever had to comfort myself when I'm lonely,bored,or sad. The abscence of it has left such a HUGE hole in my life/psyche. I'm trying to cope just like the umteen gazillion others who have gone through this same thing. Its having friends like you and all the other smores that make this even remotely bearable. Thanks again for your support! willby

Oh Willby, I'm sorry to see you are feeling badly. I just read this now, I hope today you have a better day. I know how you feel though, I've had a very rough week with food vs my pouch (as you know) and at one point I thought "who's idea WAS this". Uh, mine. Terrible thoughts pop in my head when my pouch is hurting! When I was in the bathroom about to after lunch on Wed, one of the doctors at work was with me (he saw me run in there bless his heart), and I said to him "I should have just stayed FAT" and he said "no way girl, everyone is so proud of you and you are going to get through this". That made me feel SO good! But go**** is HARD. As prepared as I thought I was before surgery, it's still different than I expected! I know we'll be ok, and in a couple of months when our bodies are used to all the new plumbing, we'll be able to eat and sleep and laugh (). I'll hang in there if you will!!!!! Have a good Saturday! Can you do anything naughty while the hubby is gone - like shopping with his credit card? Anytime you feel blue - drop us a post and we'll be there!! Much love, Carol V