so tired of lurking

Hello everyone I have been lurking around for about siz months now!! I had surgery Jan 28 2005. I have lost probally 99 1/2 pounds. I am coming out now because I need support.. I have gradually been going back to my old ways grazing and emotional eating. I really feel connected to this board because even after losing 100 pounds I am still at the point where most people begin. I am even like if I can just get to 225 I will be the happiest woman alive. How can this be if I can just get to that point I will be happy when others say how miserable they were even at 240 or 225?? Does anyone agree that this is a differnt kind of weight. Because I notice even at 299 I can really get around so much better

Hi Texas, You are not alone.. Just look at the two previous posts from this morning titled OMG NSV and Just 2 more lbs to go, and read the threads. We are all in the same boat. I wont repeat what I wrote on those posts, but we are different then the "lightweights" who start at 240lbs and lose 100lbs and never walked in out shoes. Now, for the grazing. You gotta stop now before you fall into the bad habits again. Just remember where you have been and where you are now. Start increasing your protien, and when you snack, try the protien bars or sf jello or sf posicles. I Know its hard, but you have to try to stay on track. You can email me and I will try to help you. Im 15mos out so I have been through what you are going through. Please email me. Hugs, Soos

Susan, I read those post I think that is part of the reason I decieded to step up and out of the dark!!! Thanks for the support and I will begin to lean on all you guys out there before I continue this useless grazing.

Hi Star! So glad that you decided to come out from Congratulations on your weight loss! I know what you mean about grazing. I'm not even 1 month out yet and I have the need to graze. I dont do it.......but I sure want to! In 16 days I have only lost 4 pounds! I'm trying not to freak out.....but somedays I do Come back often! willby

So glad you came out of lurkdome and posted!!! Congratulations on your weight loss so far! I'm only 5 weeks out and the urge to graze hasn't really hit me yet but I know it will. Getting back into old habits is a big fear of mine. My surgery was not easy and I ended up right back in the hospital and had a 2nd surgery a week later, really went through a lot. I know it's fresh in my mind now, but that is what I'm going to think of when I start to struggle. If I'm badly tempted by something, or find myself grazing I'm going to make myself remember what I went through to GET this surgery, and remind myself that I didn't go through all that to stay fat!!! That may sound crazy, but it's all I got!!! The only other thing I can say is, hang in there, be tough on yourself and don't give up. AND stay with us here on OH, it's like a 24/7 support group!! Much love, Carol V

I almost compare myself to a drug addict!!! Because food is my addiction. Yes surgery help and I did really good for the first six months. But now I miss my friend my comfortor.....food. Good luck ladies in the beginning of your journey. Keep up the good work

Hi Texas Star, Welcome out of lurker's ville. I hope you can get hold right now, before it is too late. My biggest fear is not losing as much as I want, then not keeping it off. I'm very fear motivated when it comes to eating and to exercise. I don't know if that is a good thing or not, but, because most of us are "food addicts" it is truly going to be a life-long struggle for us. We need to help each other. Are you exercising? Please continue posting. Lori 384/274/170 I'm also now at the weight that so many start this journey at.

Hi Lori, I have not been exercising as much as I should. But when I do go it is very rewarding!! Yes I also fear not losing enough and then gaining it back and then getting even bigger than I ever was. This to shall pass

I think once you break the 300 pound barrier things start to get a lot easier. I could move much better and exercising started to become fun. Losing 100 pounds is great you have done well. The second hundred is fantastic. You have got a lot to look forward to. It just takes us longer to reach our goals than thinner people. High protein, low carbs, plenty of water, 6 small meals a day and plenty of exercise. When you get to 225 you will be strong because your body was used to carrying around 400 lbs. You will feel like you can fly. John

Hi John , Yes I do feel that exercise has become more fun and my body even longs for it the days I dont go. So I am hoping this next hundred will be even better. As for my protein. Protein shakes make my chest hurt has anyone had that problem? No matter how much I water it down.