Hi Everyone....

Well, After 4 weeks I am back home at my apartment. I was so looking forward to going home. And I wanted to go home so bad for so long. And now I am sitting here in my apartment scared. Just thinking about how I use to be before my surgery and the way I use to eat when I was alone it really scares me to be here alone. I never thought that I would feel this way. I know I am doing everything that I need to do. I am just scared that I will do something crazy or dumb. Even though there is nothing bad for me at home. Does anyone have any suggestions? Thanks, Monica F.

Hi Monica, Welcome home hon. I am glad you went thru everything with flying colors. It is normal to be scared. You are now at a different place and you are in the old atmosphere, so you feel like a fish out of water. You will adjust fine. Your head might want to do some of you old habits, but your body will stop you. By the time you can eat a bigger variety of foods, you will have developed your healthy eating habits and wont want to change back, trust me. If you need to talk, please dont hesitate to call. You have a big support group of people that are willing to help you through this, please take advantage of our knowledge and some of the mistakes that we made. I welcome you to the losers lounge and just remember the reason why you did this, and that should help you. Make sure you have plenty of sf popsicles and pudding and soups, and also crackers to snack on if you need to. Protien first, then everything else. Remember to chew, chew, chew and sip, sip sip. That is all the advice you need. Good luck to you, and please call if you have any questions. Hugs, Soos

Hi Sue, Thanks so much. I think its because I am here in my place alone - and I know when I was alone is when I did my most damage to myself. The good thing is - I feel like I have control for the first time in my life. And I am so pleased at how things are going. Its just being at the place where you did your most damage - wow so many feelings and thoughts come to your mind. Its amazing how different things are now and how different you think. Thanks for everything! Monica F.

Monica, Treat eating and drinking like you would taking a prescription. Each time you put something in your mouth, think about the health benefits that it will provide. Stay in touch with us if you feel like you need support. That is what we are here for. I'm excited for you on this new journey. Each day of success makes it easier to have another day, then another! Lori 384/274/170

Hi Lori, Wow thats a great way to think about it! Thanks so much - I know that I can do this - it just gets scary sometimes. I am alone alot and thats because of wanting to be alone so much when I was eatting different. Bu tnow I am hoping that will all change! And it has already in many ways because I have not only changed my eatting but my attitude. Thanks again! Monica F.

Monica((((((BIG HUG))))))) Yea........what Lori and Sue said. We are here for you! I'm scared too. Scared of eating something wrong and paying the price. Scared that this wont work for me like everything else I've tried. I think we have all been scared in one way or the other Sue and Lori are great success stories(in more ways than one) We are soooooooooo lucky to have their knowledge here for us. Monica, if youre scared and need to talk........just come on here. We are all here for you and we are all walking on the same journey. take care willby

Thanks Willby, You totally Rock - I agree that I just need to be here more with you guys. I am doing good and just want to keep going. Thanks for being there for me! Monica F.

No advice chicklet... still pre-op, so I'm sending some big SMO hugs! ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((MONICA))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Huggs, Ruth

Thanks Ruthie!!! Your a great friend!!!! Hugs Back, Monica F.

Monica I wish I had some advice for you...I just wanted you to know that you ARE NOT ALONE!! We are all here for you anytime you start feeling overwhelmed... Hang in there ....{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} Jamie