I'm A Junkie!!!!

Cassandra(((((BIG HUG)))))))) I'm so glad that you found this board! You are such a postitive influence here! Thank you for your support! willby

Hi Willby, Thank you for your kind words. I'm so happy to find a place where everyone can come together and be supportive of each other. I am a member on several other WL/dieting boards and this one by far is the most supportive and understanding of all, especially when it comes to dealing with obesity and wls in general. I jump at the chance to pay it forward, I come here to lend support as best as I can. Hope you are having a super day, Willby! Cassandra

Willby, I can totally relate to what you are saying. Thankfully, I never had a sweet tooth, and have never craved sweets, but I have no problem tolerating all of the other bad stuff I love. I do put real sugar in my coffee (even worse - International Delight French Vanilla creamer, and not the low carb or the low fat one either) and I have been since the day I got home from the hospital. I have to have coffee, and anything but the real thing just tastes bad. I eat cheese every morning for breakfast (nd not the low fat cheese, the good stuff), 1-2 oz, with 5-6 crackers (BAD!!!!!!) and if I get a Wendy's chili for lunch, I put the saltines they give you in it. Frequently I have a sandwich for lunch (again, bread, BAD!!!!), although I can only eat less than half. I eat whatever I want, in extremely tiny portions, although I have not eaten fast food (except the Wendy's chili). I don't get in enough protein, but I am on a lot of supplements and my bloodwork is fine. All of my liquids come from Diet Pepsi and coffee (which my surgeon is fine with my drinking, but I am pretty sure he doesn't want it to be my only source of fluids), except the one day when my entire liquid and food consumption came from 8 Grey Goose & Vodkas at the bar. Uggghhh. My surgeon says I am doing great. I am just over 5 months and have lost 106 pounds. I have gone from a size 32 to a 20 (and the legs are very loose, but I have a huge hernia which is making my belly much bigger). I can't help but wonder where I would be if I did this right. That being said, I am thrilled I am losing, and happy I can live like a normal person, somewhat. I am still working through this, as we all are, and I am hoping it gets better, and easier. I wish you the best of luck in finding what works for you, Carrie BTW, I have a new recent pic in my profile; unfortunately, I am still enormous I have yet to see a real change in the mirror.

Carrie(((((((((BIG HUG)))))))) Thank you for your words of encouragement! You sound exactly like I feel. Maybe we want to live under the illusion of being normal and being able to eat normally? Who knows? Anyways, thanks again! And your new pic is mahvelous dahling!! willby

We all knew that!!!! I mean look at your eyes.. lol. It will get better. love marie

Marie, Now, now, now......if I were a TRUE junk food junkie, my eyeballs would be IN my stomach instead of ON my face!!! Thanks, girlfriend! willby

Willby, maybe it's time for some of us, you and me for instance, to get serious about our tool again. Your post really shook me up about myself. I weigh everyday, because the scales don't beg me when they go up and down, but this time the few pounds up have stayed too long and I know it's a true weight game. I am playing with my food. I am not getting in enough protein. I am eating too many carbs. I am not drinking any fluids except coffee. Do I want to stall at only half my weight lost? Do you want to be a slow loser? Do I want to be stuck in the last of my old fat clothes in my closet? The ones from the frumpy store? No!! No, I want them to get too big soon! I want to buy a new mini wardrobe. I want to get rid of the last of my old clothes. I want to move on to a size 22 and beyond. You said the other day that you were finally not regreting the surgery. We will both reget the surgery if we don't meet our mini and major goals. I have a challenge for you. I will cut back on the heavy cream soups, the crackers, the popcorn, start drinking my Cyrstal Lite and going heavy on protein without sauces and such if you will start each hour with a resolve to not have junk food. But like that show "What Not to Wear", there is a catch. You have to express your delightful sense of humor in a different way besides the donut glasses. You have to post a new picture. If you are really Star Jones in disguise you can cover your face with a hat , but the junk food persona has to go. You can place any conditions on me you like. Are we up to the challenge? Loris

LORIS(((((((((big hug))))))))) GIRL! Sounds like a LOT of work to me!!! OK! I accept your challenge! I will resolve every hour to "TRY" to get through it without junk food. Now......about my picture............ I will work on getting a new pic up there WITHOUT junk food and WITHOUT hiding. I have this idea for one. I think I will pull the loose skin hanging from my butt up over my head and just make 2 little peepholes. Are you SURE you want me to change it? Now, your part of the bargain is this...........you have to send me all of the junk food that you dont eat!!!! (hmmmmmmm.....sounds like a plan to me!!) take care willby

You are on. I like your idea for a new picture. Me, I could use my boobs to hide my face. OK, off to plan a day of protein filled eating. Yikes! Loris