Its All Her Fault!!!!!!!!!!

My dumb doctor that is. Well, not actually hers..........but her big fat dumb stupid scale that weighs people 12 pounds (THATS RIGHT 12 POUNDS) heavier than the scale at home. She said it might be my clothes and shoes and quarter,dime,nickel in my pocket that added the weight. And my dear, sweet, beautiful daughter, Emily, went with me and felt the need to tell the doctor about my pretzels.( I still love you, Em!) My doctor told me to cut out the decaf coffee. She said that for every cup of coffee I drink, I would have to drink a cup of water to cancel it out(????????) I told her what I eat in a normal day and she said that MOST 3 month post oppers cant eat that much. (CALL THE GUINESS BOOK OF WORLD RECORDS PEOPLE!!!!!) She also told me(no big surprise here) that maybe I should think about going to a therapist that specializes in eating disorders. She also told me not to be too hard on myself........Ive had 49 years to reinforce the bad habits, but only 11 weeks to start the new ones. Dear Smores, I'm only venting here. I KNOW what I need to do. Please just let me blab blab blab........and give me a hug. willby (thanks for listening to my whining!)

Willby- I was wondering what happened to you at your appointment!! I checked the board a couple times last night to see if you posted! 12lbs!! WOW!!! That sounds like my doctors office.. But I go in and basically strip off everything that I can without getting naked so I get a better weight! I also make sure I wear very light clothes.. Now as for your daughter... she just loves you and wants whats best for you!! My lovely DH does the same thing to me, only he spills ALL my eating secrets!! His reasoning is " dont eat something that your too ashamed to let the doctor know about".. so Ive had an earful a couple times too... Therapy with someone who understand eating disorders is great advice! You would be amazed how simply talking with someone about it can help.. Ive been seeing the same lady who did my eval and she is great!! She is a little harsh with her words at times, but thats what I need... And since she has had WLS herself, when she is harsh and lectures me I take it a little better then I would from someone who has no clue what this struggle is like.. Good luck!! Amber

Amber (((((BIG HUG))))) I couldnt post last night.........I was too busy plotting ways to super glue my girls mouth shut. Can it be that the Secret Food Police have hired your DH and my DD to spy on us? Oh well...........my GRANDMA SOOS says "It is what it is". I did the best I could. Right, Amber? Right? HEY! Amber!!!!! willby

Ya cant glue her mouth shut- well you could, but I wouldnt suggest it! Besides, she would still have ways to tell on you!! You will do just fine.. Do your best, keep in mind that you had years of enjoying all that junk food- now you have years to learn to enjoy other foods.. (Whoever came up with the idea of buttered popcorn is just EVIL!! EVIL I tell ya!! I had to give up and throw the last couple bags away yesterday so I wouldnt be tempted!! ) Now Im off to enjoy the treadmill, ab lounger, and yoga ball!! I need to get my 45minutes of exercise in or Ill never get below 200lbs!! Amber

((((((((((((((WILLBY)))))))))))))))))) What can I say but just do what you asked and give you a big hug. Love Soos

GRANDMA, I need more than a hug from you...........I need a good swift kick in the rear! What was I thinking eating like I had never heard of Gastric Bypass Surgery? willby

hugs, hugs, and more hugs

Ok Willby, Here is your kick in the rear. I think you need to do some soul searching and think about how good being thin feels as compared to that stuff you shovel in your mouth tastes. It is hard being human, but we all are and that comes with some faults. Just do the best you can and be accountable for what you do. Just remember that you have the ability to control what you eat. Your poor dear Stacey does not have any control over her health, but if she did you know she would do the right thing to get her back to normal. I know this i****ting below the belt, but you wanted a reality check from me, so here it is. Just do your very best and I will keep a check on your progress. Big hugs and lots of love, Grandma Soos

Grandma, OUCH!!!!! Not so hard!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you. I knew if anyone could give me a good kick it would be you. The word is A-C-C-O-U-N-T-A-B-I-L-I-T-Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for reminding me!!!! XXXXXOOOOOO willby

(((((WILLBY IM SORRY)))))) I know I was harsh, but wanted to hit a nerve. I will now be a soft place for you to fall. I know you can do this and you will. Its never to late to make a frest start. Take baby steps and you will still make it to the finish line. It doesnt matter how fast you get there, just so you get there. Im here for you always. Hugs, Grandma Soos