Trying hard not to give up

I'm sorry I've been away for awhile. I'm trying really hard to fight off this depression that has crept in on me. I really miss my best friend, and I keep telling myself she wouldn't want me to let her going home to be with the lord and out of all of her pain, and suffering be a negative thing to me. Somehow, I can't help missing her. I haven't been sleeping much at night and my DH told me this morning that I needed to turn to all of my new SMO friends and let it all out. You see, when I began gaining back the weight I once lost, the "friends" I used to have through work, and running around with them, proved what "friends" they were by turning their backs on me and walking out of my life. Oh, a few of them call once in a while, so when I lost my "best friend in the entire world", I guess I felt like I had nobody......DH made it perfectly clear to me that I do have, not only him and the boys, but I have an enitre community of friends on here, and I need to turn to you all. So here I am. I did get an interesting phone call yesterday from live-lite program. While talking to the very nice lady, I told her I already have insurance approval, but I couldn't pay everything that was expected with the last WLS center, she told me that once I attended a seminar there, and felt like I would be comfortable with their program, I would be well on my way. I asked about the maximum weight before surgery, and she told me that it was 600 pounds.....I am working on losing, and even though I haven't weighed I can tell I am losing some by the way my clothes feel. I know that I would be under their weight limit. The best thing is that the most I would have to pay out of pocket upfront would be $500.00. and the rest could be paid in payments that would fit into my budget. I'm looking forward to attending their seminar very soon!! Thank You all so much for listening, and being there. Have a great day everyone Hugs Theresa

Theresa(((((((((((((BIG HUG)))))))))))) You do have us(if you want us or not) We will always be here for each other........thats whats so great about this board. We have all felt the way you are feeling at one time or another.(and will feel that way again) I have been looking for you to post........and sort of thought you might be in a depression............well!!! MOVE OVER KIDDO...........if youre going down in the dumps.........I"M COMING TOO!!!!! willby

Willby....You always make me smile!! If you're coming with me, be prepared to climb....I'm gonna climb on up out of this depression!! I may need from time to time....but I'm on the 1st step of the ladder...... Thanks for being you!! Theresa

Theresa, I would be so lost without my best friend in the whole world.. I am sure words can't even describe what you're feeling. Even though a part of you knows she is in a better place... we're only human and we need each other regardless! I know she wouldn't want you to be depressed though... of course you're gonna be sad..I also think she'd be very proud of you for still pursuing the surgery and looking for a way to afford it... Perhaps she's helping things fall into place??? You know she's there with you!! Of course when ya need to talk or yell or scream and cry... We're here. AND when you get your date and turn into a big ole loser we'll be here cheering you on!!!! I am very happy you got on today and talked to us!! Don't be a stranger. We've all traveled a lot of the same paths to get where we are today. Maybe someone can help if even only to make you smile. Now I gotta go find some rope and a donut to lure WILLBY out those dumps she jumped into to be with you....(Being pre-ops.. me and you will split the donut and laugh at her!)

Wls Chk, WHAT?????????? DID SOMEBODY SAY DONUT????????????????? willby

Wls Chik, Your words really made me feel a presence on my best friend. and made me smile!! Hope you found that rope you were looking for....I may need it when I get a little closer to the top of this ladder I'm using to climb out of this depression, may need to pull my big ole butt over the top. Theresa

Dear Theresa, I am so sorry that you lost your friend. Even though she is gone from this life, she still seems to influence you by helping you make the decision to find and seek out the new wls program. That is such good news that you found a program that will work within your budget. Good luck on your weight loss. The way your clothes feel on you is the REAL success speaking to you. Just keep up with what you are doing, the HARD part is PATIENCE..that is something that I am continually learning too. Come and vent anytime..it's fine with us!! Ginger

Hi Ginger, Thank you for reminding me to have patience!! My DH would tell you I don't own even a half and ounce of it. and I have to admit he's right I'm hoping to receive the packet from the new wls center soon, so I can plan the trip to the first seminar. You're and Theresa