***********The Compulsion***********

Well, 9 months and 1 week into my "new" life........the compulsion to snack, stuff, numb, graze or just keep my "hands" busy has been haunting me for the last 3-4 days. I really try to stay away from the carbs, ie. crackers, chips, pretzels, cheez it's, cheez nips, you get the picture. But this week has been difficult. I have been "snacking" on these little treats for the last few nights and so much that I have made myself sick to my stomach. Then I lay in bed, and say to myself, oh man, I'm sooo NOT eating that again. But guess what, the next night I'm back to eating them. I still only eat about 500-700 cal a day. I don't consider this cheating on my plan, but I know that I should not be doing this. I'm still eating no sugar, candy, pop ect. But I have been munching these past few days. I think I'm chalking this entry up to stress this week, since I have started my new job this past Monday and I've been nervous all week. The new item that I'm snacking on is mustard flavored pretzels from the Amish Bulk food store. I WILL NOT BE GOING THERE THIS WEEKEND!!!!! Take Care~~ Carmella

sounds like me "why do i do this to myself" typing of thinking when your laying in bed at night... or I won't cheat tomorrow i myself and still under 800cals. a day which it the amount im suppose to have and I still feel bad at night when i eat something im not suppose to have. But we are not robot that they reprogramed we just have to keep trying over and over! I wish you the best with your new job!

Carmella and Marlene This is the probelm I'm having right now. I hate myself for cheating and yet cant seem to stop(the story of my entire life) Thanks for the honesty! willby

I have been having the same thing going on with me I have been flat out depressed about a lot of things in my life and have been known to say in the last few weeks you cant get over it with just 2 bites lol I eat when I am down and i just cant seem to make my self not eat the little things that made my life such hell just a few 8 months ago 147lbs I have lost am I going to mess this and my life up over a cookie or a chip and like you I have said time and time agian I will not do this to my self but I find it something that I just cant stop i know I will get over this things right now are so hard and I am just making them harder by doing this to my self I am doing so good why why in the hell am I going back to step one stop the eatting its killing you ok so I have vented my pain hope it helps some one I am lost here trying to find my own light in this sorry if I got you down just know you are not alone shelley 458/316/210?

Carmella, Is 500-700 calories a day where your surgeon wants you at 9 months out? Mine wants me at 1200-1500. I'm losing slower than you, but feel pretty good. I do fight the urge to snack. I mainly do it by making myself snack on healthy stuff like raw veggies, nuts and cottage cheese...but, it is a struggle. Particularly if there is chocolate around. Lori 384/250.5/168