Oh, DS, how do I love thee?

Tassia
on 1/25/10 9:33 am, edited 1/25/10 9:33 am
This morning, I sipped my coffee with full fat cream (1) as I got ready for my day.  I slipped on my size 16 (2) jeans and an XL(3) sweater and got ready for work.  I put make-up on (!) and did my hair (4).  Then, I grabbed a yummy chunk of full fat Swiss cheese (5) and wrapped a slice of deli roast beef around it for breakfast.  I put on my old “new" coat, also a size XL (6) that I just grew into right before Christmas.  It was snug then, but now its loose.  Packed my lunched, wished my son and mom a good day, and headed off to the train. 

On the train, I grabbed the first seat (7) I saw open.  Never stopping to wonder if there was enough room for me next to the person who was already sitting there.  And that person didn’t sigh loudly, nor did they smush themselves against the wall of train in an exaggerated pronunciation that I wasn’t going to fit without touching them or causing them great emotional distress. 

I got off the train at the station. I proceeded to walk up the 40 or so stairs (8) from the ground floor to the main floor instead of taking the escalator.  It was rough, but I did it. I don’t do this every day, but I do on Mondays just to see if it’s getting easier.  It is! 

I walked the two blocks to my office and I remembered how hard this used to be just two months ago.  Back then, I felt like I was 80 years old, trudging the length of the city blocks, as people my own age zoomed past me.  Today, guess who was zooming who??! lol (9) 

My whole crew was already in when I walked in, and we began another busy, but fun day.  At 11 am, I started eating lunch.  Pasta salad (made with Dreamfield’s) with chopped red and green peppers, onions and 3 oz of chicken.  All drenched in full fat Caesar dressing! (10)  Yummmmmm!  It took me two hours to eat it all, but no one notices anything different as I’ve always eaten at my desk.  I savored the noodles.  And thought to myself, “I don’t have to worry about dumping.  I don’t have to feel guilty for this full fat dressing.  I don’t have to have all that noise in my head anymore!" (11)  It was very liberating.   

As the day wore on, I was moving some boxes and grimaced in pain.  Not a scary pain, but pain because I started working out with weights (12) this past weekend, and my shoulders and arms are sore.  It’s a good pain.  Pain that let’s me know my muscles still work.  That after all I’ve put my body through all the years of my life, it still works! (13) 

And as I walked back to the train this evening, I was planning my evening walk instead of my evening snack. (14)  Treadmill style, because winter is not done with Chicago quite yet! 

All this in two months?  Oh, I love you, my little DS.  Thank you, Thank you, THANK YOU!
mspppants
on 1/25/10 9:39 am - Leicester, NC
Tass, this is such a sweet post.  I feel thankful too, for all losing weight has done for me.

take care,

pp

Tassia
on 1/25/10 10:15 am
 Isn't it amazing?  Sometimes, i don't believe I had the guts (pun intended..lol) to go through with it.  But thanks to all the support on here and irl, I'm so glad I did!
*   Take 1 DS, add a little p90x and stir :)
5' 3"  HW 293/SW 253/Goal 130/CW 128

jewel506
on 1/25/10 9:42 am - Houston, TX
 Tassia,

Wow.....

Thank you for sharing your day, blessings noted! :-)

A very inspirational post.

Keep it up!!  You're obviously making tremendous progress!!!

Julie
Tassia
on 1/25/10 10:16 am
Awwww.. Thank you Julie.  I'm noticing stuff every day, but I never want the memory of what it was like before to fade away, you know?
*   Take 1 DS, add a little p90x and stir :)
5' 3"  HW 293/SW 253/Goal 130/CW 128

(deactivated member)
on 1/25/10 9:46 am
I love your post!! So inspirational.  I shall join you soon!  One week I shall be on the dark side.

Hugs,
Ratkity
Tassia
on 1/25/10 10:18 am
you will do great!  The first few weeks are rough, no doubt about that.  But it is so worth it when you just get back to normal and life gets easier every day.  
*   Take 1 DS, add a little p90x and stir :)
5' 3"  HW 293/SW 253/Goal 130/CW 128

Denise Afflerbach
on 1/25/10 9:53 am - Baden, PA
Sweet! Isn't it like a wonderful dream, except you never have to worry about the alarm clock going off!!  Continued success and happiness!
Tassia
on 1/25/10 10:20 am
Oh, it is like a dream!  So so so much more than I imagined!

Thank you very much :)
*   Take 1 DS, add a little p90x and stir :)
5' 3"  HW 293/SW 253/Goal 130/CW 128

Sarah B.
on 1/25/10 10:00 am, edited 1/25/10 10:14 am - Plymouth Meeting, PA
Ok, edited because for some REALLY weird reason, it reposted your entire post instead of my reply. Basically I said that that was an AWESOME post wih an amazing series of every day wows. Talk about inspirational!
Century Club: 3.14.10 ~ ONEderland 4.28.10 ~ Normal BMI & 150 Pounds Lost: 7.25.10

(HW 317 / SW 301 / GW 169 / CW 144 & LOVING my DS! / 5' 9")
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