I'm shrinking, I'm shrinking; oh what a world. Bit of a rant..

Kerry J.
on 3/2/10 11:28 pm - Santa Clara, UT
Hmm, I feel like the wicked witch in the Wizard of Oz; I'm shrinking.....

I knew my waist was getting smaller because my pants are getting more and more loose, but my weight had been pretty stable for the past 6 months; in fact I had gained a few pounds and since my body fat% had been going down, I knew the gain was because of muscle mass I've been building. So I wasn't sweating it, I just figured that's the way it would be for me.

But for the past three weeks, my weight has been slowly dropping; I've now lost 10 pounds from my high of 205. The weird thing is that I'm not trying to lose weight, I still eat lots of protein, but I'm not afraid of carbs and I do eat quite a few carbs now.

The only thing that makes sense to me about this is that my whole metabolism has changed and my body has decided to shed a few more pounds of fat. I'm not complaining in the least, I feel great; it hard to imagine feeling better and better, but that's how it is.

I had pretty much resigned myself to accept as my goal weight 195-200; but now, maybe not, maybe I will end up below 190. I'm not there yet, but if things keep going like they have been, I will be there in less than a month.

Who knew?

I guess the thing to learn from this is to just keep doing what you should, take your vitamins & minerals, get your labs done, fix your deficiencies, eat lots of protein, drink lots of water and be as active as you can be. Besides that, live; live your life for all you can, enjoy every minute, even the rough tough times are part of the experience and will make your good times just that much better.

Maybe, I'm ranting a bit or sounding preachy, but I guess I'm just so grateful to have this second chance to really live that I don't want anyone else to miss their chance. It's probably related to some things that happened yesterday.

First I went to see an old friend who has been ill, he came to see me when I first got back from my revision surgery and I looked like hell. But when I saw Darrel yesterday, it was pretty scary; he looks like he's dieing. They don't know what's wrong with him, but he's not making and red blood cells and his spleen is enlarged. His head and abdomen are huge; really swollen. He's even talking about dieing, it's like he is giving up. I tried to cheer him up and get him thinking positive, but he seems stuck on feeling sorry for himself and in giving up. I felt so bad for him.

Then last night, Barb and I went to do some service work for our church with two other couples in our neighborhood. After we finished up the service work we went out to eat and I ran into another friend I hadn't seen for a long time; he's younger than I by 2 years and he was using a cane; he's not overweight. I said what the hell Steve, what's the story with the cane? Turns out he just had a knee replaced and that's why he's using the cane and that as soon as he's healed up from that, they're going to do the other knee!! So I'm thinking....wow, I just signed up to play in a USTA tournament this weekend and Steve is two years younger than I am; I am so blessed to have the health, strength and stamina I have, I'm a very lucky man.

Then as we were being seated one of the other couples we were with ran into a friend of theirs and this friend asked if they had heard about Tamra -------. Tamra was a year older than I was in school, but I knew her well, a very nice person. She had died; they didn't know any details, just that she had died.

So here am I, reveling in my life; enjoying every minute, shrinking out of my clothes, eating like I love to eat. I have a beautiful wife who loves me, I have 4 great kids; all married well, all great people. I even have 6 grand kids; how could life get any better?

When I see how other people are struggling, it makes me wonder when this wonderful life will all come crashing down....

Kerry
Heather E.
on 3/2/10 11:38 pm
Awww, Kerry - beautiful post.  Brought tears to my eyes.  Good for you for recognizing how good you've got it - a lot of people only see the negative and don't appreciate the positive.

~Heather~

HW: 249/ CW: 130/ GW: 140
 

Kerry J.
on 3/3/10 3:43 am - Santa Clara, UT
It would be impossible for me not to realize how good I've got it. It's hard to come to grips with how quickly things can change. Two years ago, I was just getting the inkling that I needed to do something serious about my health and I started looking into what I had to deal with (my messed up guts) and what my options would be.

Two years later, here I am in what seems like heaven to me.

Kerry
Gracie P.
on 3/2/10 11:53 pm - Mansfield, OH
Great post Kerry!  The Lord has blessed you!  Keep smiling and enjoy every minute!

Gracie
xoxo
Kerry J.
on 3/3/10 3:44 am - Santa Clara, UT
Thanks Gracie, I will do that. And you are headed for the same kind of experience..

Kerry 
PattyL
on 3/3/10 12:18 am
 Well, Kerry,  maybe, just maybe, you got what you deserved.

That doesn't happen for too many of the people in this life so take it, embrace it, and enjoy every minute of it!
Kerry J.
on 3/3/10 3:46 am - Santa Clara, UT
Oh, I am embracing and enjoying it. It's hard to imagine what I could have done to deserve all this, but what ever the reason or lack of a reason, I'll take it.

Kerry
Rocky-Raccoon
on 3/3/10 2:01 am - XX
Do you believe in Karma?   Maybe you are getting the Karma you deserve. 

Everything but that small waist.  Life must be a ***** to have a 46" chest and a 32" waist.  

So all of the woman in OH, talk about getting hit on, I am sure if you fess up your wife would never read about it here.  You know what they say, "what is said in OH, stays in OH". 

Kerry J.
on 3/3/10 3:51 am - Santa Clara, UT
I've never been one to believe in Karma, but it's usually been my experience that no good deed goes unpunished. 

If you would have told me two years ago that I would have a 32" waist, I would have figured that would only happen a year or so after I had died and my body was in decomp mode. I would never have believe it possible, never in a 100 years.

Sorry, nothin I know of to fess up about; but Barb always says I'm so dense about getting hints, I suppose anything like that is possible.

Kerry
kathie09
on 3/3/10 2:50 am - not available
Kerry
I love your posts! I'm getting ready for the switch next month, and I've got to say that I'm a bit nervous. However, I probably look like some of your friends. I feel like I am dying a slow death. My knees are bad, my BP is high, I'm pre diabetic, and I feel like I am 20 years older than I really am. So - I'm ready for a new lease on life. Thanks to all of you for being so positive on here! I absolutely can't wait to make it over to the losing side!

kathie
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