So lost and off track

wings
on 4/5/11 11:44 pm - Fort Myers Beach , FL
Hi Julie

Thanks for sharing that.  I just can't believe how fast this come on or seemed to come on.  I only stayed out for 1 hours this AM and I refuse to call off my volunteer ER shift tonight. 

I did kick the sugar soda thing but I find myself munching on grahm crackers and ritiz with cheese.  Dr. says the Celexa is temporary to get me back up where I should be.  I can't wait to feel hope and on fire again. 

It is so nice to know that I am not alone and others have been here too.

Carla
[url=http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w6HR7lf/]
[img]http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w6HR7lf/weight.png[/img]
[/url]
Victorious_one
on 4/5/11 11:11 pm - South Central, PA
 
Hang in there, Carla.  I'm praying for you.  

My DH hasn't lost anything since last summer.  I'm hoping that his scale will get moving and he'll be able to make it to goal.  He had about 250 lbs to go, and has done 125 so far.  It sucks to be stuck, for sure!  I'm stuck too while I'm on TPN, but I have to have faith that the scale will get moving once I'm off of it, which will hopefully be soon.
Nicole  Lab rata data link- One-half of a DS couple!  - I'M BELOW GOAL!
 http://bit.ly/DSExp  After a very rough start it's official--I my DS!  Romans 8:28 
Looking for DS information? Start at 
 http://bit.ly/newDS and DSFacts.com 
LilySlim - Personal pictureLilySlim Weight loss tickers         
wings
on 4/5/11 11:48 pm - Fort Myers Beach , FL
I feel your pain believe me.   My wt loss was steady and fast for one year then I just stopped and stuff in life started happening and now here I am in a depressed freakin hole when I should be happy as heck with the progress that I have made. 

I am going back to the bare basics and I do mean the bare basics.  I set a personal goal for this week and to start bites and vites Monday with a weekly weigh which I have never done.  I always weighed in monthly. 

I will pray for you both too.  I could not pick better ppl to go through this journey than the ppl here on OH. 

Carla
[url=http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w6HR7lf/]
[img]http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w6HR7lf/weight.png[/img]
[/url]
Hendramy
on 4/5/11 11:53 pm, edited 4/6/11 6:53 am
You've gotten so many thoughtful wonderful replies already but I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you.  This is just called life, and sometimes it's tough and doesn't make sense and tests us harder than ever.  I'm sorry you're going though this. You're not done losing weight!  You're going to find your way through this and you'll see brighter days.  There's no "should be" in terms of being happy and there's nothing to apologize for in getting the help you need.  If Celexa gets you through to the other side of this than it is ABSOLUTELY the right thing to do!  I would also recommend finding a talk therapist to help you get through this.  You are so smart to even recognize that you need help and are doing the right thing by going out there and getting it! 

Yay!  You've already taken the hardest step.  I wish you a speedy journey and much personal growth through this unfortunate time.

Amy
HW 324/ SW 303/ CW 172/ GW130            
wings
on 4/6/11 12:12 am - Fort Myers Beach , FL
Thanks Amy, ((((Hugs)))) back at ya.

I am making myself suck it up and get out of bed, take shower and put on makeup.  Now today I drove over the bridge but I will start walking it again because its a good reflection time for me and the view is breath taking to the Gulf. 

I am gonna start Bite & Vites, excercise and weekly weigh ins because I have just completely fallen off the earth.  I want back on and I want to enjoy my days again.  I will is my new saying instead of I can't or I don't feel like it. 

Lets see where I am in 2 weeks cause you know it take 2-weeks to change a habbit and 2 months to make it a habbit then 6 months to make it a way of life.  One year shows true commitment. 

Carla
[url=http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w6HR7lf/]
[img]http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w6HR7lf/weight.png[/img]
[/url]
KimberlyHeidi
on 4/6/11 12:46 am - VA
 I just wanted to offer you hugs and support =)
wings
on 4/6/11 5:17 am - Fort Myers Beach , FL
I am truly smiling back at you right now ((((Hugs)))) to you also.

Carla
[url=http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w6HR7lf/]
[img]http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w6HR7lf/weight.png[/img]
[/url]
DarcyMad
on 4/6/11 1:42 am - Cedar Park, TX
Carla,

My heart goes out to you.  My best friend just lost her dad this morning.  I haven't lost any parents but I can only imagine the devastation.

That being said, remember YOU are in control here.  Nothing wrong with munchies...just munch on something that's better for you.  Start upping the protein and you will not crave the carbs so much.  Get some protein bars so you have a "sweet" go to when you need it.  I've been doing Greek yogurt mixed with SF Jello Cheesecake pudding mix.  I mix to taste and its SO yummy!  Not to mention its extremely easy to make!  Nuts are also a quickie snack that's got protein.  Just reach for better items, THEN snack away!

If you want my honest opinion - get rid of soda - ALL FORMS!!!  I have read that even the sugar-free stuff can keep weight on so its best to avoid it altogether.  I have found this stuff here in TX called MiO.  You'll find them with the Gatorade and drinks like that but its a little bottle of liquid drops that you can add to water, even sparkling water!  They have fruit flavors like Pomegranate Berry, Strawberry Watermelon, and Mango Peach.  They even have some teas!  The closer you get to water, the healthier you'll be...I'm tellin' ya...kick the soda habit altogether.

Take your antidepressant.  I think it will make a world of difference and will keep the stress levels down some.  I'm on one and I'm so glad for it every day.  They really do help, just give it time to kick in.  It may take a few weeks!  Hang in there....things will get better.  Can you talk your mom into moving closer to family?
DarcyMad
Surgery Date:  11/15/2010
Jewel506 is my Angel!    Angel to Kristi (Momx4)
Anything that is, or was, began as a dream - Lavagirl 
    
wings
on 4/6/11 5:23 am - Fort Myers Beach , FL
Thank you Darcey

I have been doing the greek yogurt Chobini with strawberries but it has 19 grams of sugar so I am giving that up too.  What kind of greek yogurt are you doing.  Alos do you know how I can make SF pudding with less carb like maybe using half & half ?

I don't know if I can give my comfort diet decaff MD just yet.  I was so hard to get off regular soda pop. 

I think mom might come around next year on the moving here to Florida closer to me.  She is greiving and depressed right now also and needs some time to heal but I think maybe next year I can get her to start the process of moving. 

Carla
[url=http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w6HR7lf/]
[img]http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w6HR7lf/weight.png[/img]
[/url]
MarciRenee
on 4/6/11 9:12 am - IA
I don't personally think you have to give up all soda to get to goal!  I know of quite a few peeps that it is their liquid for the whole day :)

And replacing a diet soda with crystal like and the ilk, while better in the sense that it probably doesn't leech calcium from bones the way soda does, it is STILL sweetened with a sugar substitute.  And I think the contention of them (whoever them, the medical peeps is) that even diet soda keeps you fat, has something to do with the sugar "tasting" in the diet soda.  At least I think it is :)

Is decreasing the amount of soda you drink a good thing?  Probably, yes.  But right now with all that you have on your plate (med school, ill mother, death of your father, depression, attempting to get back on track with eating and all that entails, and starting to exercise again, plus life in general) asking you to give up soda right now might be just a bit much!

I am so glad you posted about the rough time you are having - we are ALL here for you!  I am so sorry for the loss of your father and that your mother is ill.  Having to reverseral of roles is insanely difficult, I know, I'm right there with you on that.  I give you major kudos for how you have dealt with all the **** that's been thrown at you!  And I am so proud that you took the step to get yourself help for your depression, that is not an easy thing to do!!

Please, be kind to yourself.  Take it one day at a time.  Don't try to force yourself to do all the things required to get back on track in one day or even one week.  It takes gradual steps to get there...start with just tracking what you are eating.  Then up your protein and choose better munchy food as Darcy said.  Then cut the carbs and continue increasing the protein. Add some shakes in.  Keep your liquid intake up, start adding in water.  Throw in some walking with the dogs and hubs.  Etc, etc, etc.  And if you have a less than perfect day - that is OK.  DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP FOR IT.  Food is just food, it isn't good and it isn't bad.  It just is.

As for the not losing thing - I am SURE it is the stress, the hernia, the depression, and the carbs (sugar soda, crackers, etc).  I hardly lost any weight from Oct/Nov until my surgery in January.  And it has been a slow progression downward since then.  I had a huge hernia repaired in January and they say that a hernia CAN affect weight loss.  Don't know why but that's what I heard.  So don't beat yourself up, at all.  Even though I haven't dropped a TON of weight since Oct/Nov I LOOK way smaller, seriously - even I can see it, so it MUST be true!!  Moral = the scale may not reflect it but you might just be losing inches.  And your hernia may have halted/slowed your weight loss.

HUGS!!
Marci       
Most Active
Recent Topics
×