Still hanging in there depression really does hurt.

I hope this helps someone because it does help me to be able to come here and jot down my feelings and read the supportive post here. 

Depression sucks and it sucks the life right out of you.  I feel like I wa**** in the gut with a sledge hammer.  Sleeping just didn't cut it this time to get thru the greiving because I starting having stupid impossible dreams than exhaustion set in on top of taking care of everyday stuff and mom's stuff I suddenly got overwhelmed. 

I started losing hope but I never thought of suicide.  I love my husband and If I was him I would have jumped on a plane and left me.  I was so mean to hiim.  He knew something was wrong.  He and all my friends tell me it just happened suddenly.  I guess I am might be a rock with a crack in it now lol.  I am human, I have feelings and I want to get back up and run again.

Carla

Hi Carla,

Pets know when their humans are not feeling well, they sense it.  Walking your dogs is good for you and for your dos.  You get to go outside, move around, and clear your mind of cobwebs.  And besides, your dogs love you and love spending time with you when walking.

Just remember baby steps with goals.  You have to take care of you first....you are important in life, just say that to yourself often.

I'm glad the medication is available to you.  You always have us here if you need to talk, or post.

Big {{{{{HUGS}}}}} to you. 

Donna

Thank you so much Donna

Its almost 4 PM and I have made it a productive day today.  I made salsibury steak and homemade mashed potatoes for dinner which will make hubby very happy.  We plan to pick up some materials to put new skirting around our trailer this evening and then walk the dogs again. 

Hubby hopes to finish the skirting Saturday which means I have to be outside to help him so I will get some sun.  Hopefully we can go kayaking Sunday. 

I have had not carbs today, well maybe 2 lol so far.  I have drank my shakes and I have gotten around 150 gram protein in, 64 ounces water and all vites for the day.  I will have some carbs in my mash potatoes this evening at dinner. 

I know today is realy good and I know tomorrow might not be the same but this is the start of better days I just know it. 

Carla

Here's a lovely song... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvIEJ_PmqJ8

Hope it can help bring another smile to your day. :)

That was beautiful kathy

I have played it several times today.  And everytime I feel I am getting weak I will play it again. 

God bless you.  I love God and sometime I forget he is there and has not forgotten me. 

Carla