Betrayal.

I can only hope that your friend who behaved in such a dastardly fashion by hoarding these images did not participate in the heinous acts captured. You have every right to feel betrayed, but I'm so sorry that it had to happen for you. It must be very difficult to both grieve for the friend who no longer exists while hating who he is in light of what you know. 

(((hugs)))

So sorry, your soul has been taken to the dark side for awhile. When I was in my 20's I went to Haiti on a medical mission trip. I am Catholic and we stayed at A place in Haiti that was run by Catholic nuns. They were remarkable with the work they did. While there we visited another place that was a house of hospitality that was ran by a Catholic Priest. Something was not right here. This priest was in his late 60's. We ate lunch the group of us, and mass was said by him. I walked around the compound and felt something was wrong, came back to the states and told my brother what I had witnessed. Everyone thought I was over reading more into it.

My older brother who at the time was only a newly ordained priest, came with me to Haiti to see for himself. When we came back to the states we notified the bishop here in our town. It took 3 years of letter writing, threats to keep my mouth shout from our local bishop, my brother being told to keep his mouth shout, and finally going to the local newspaper with the story me and my brother had put together on this man who called himself a priest. 

He had indeed molested children here in the states many years ago and the church just kept moving him around. He finally fled and went to Haiti and opened a orphanage for children. He was not a acting priest as his facilities had been pulled many years ago, but he pretended to still be a priest. Children were sleeping in his bed, and around his bed. Just thinking about this set up made me sick. To think people gave him money for his orphanage. Good news, it was shut down and he left Haiti.  I am still a participating catholic and and my brother is still a priest. We had our rough times exposing the catholic church cover up but we have always been advocates for children. It is sad when who ever or what ever we put our trust in hurts and betrays our love and trust. Religion, Government, People, Health Care, all the same, we give our trust, they take our heart. We grow stronger and wiser.

Never underestimate a mother. I may not have a degree, nothing behind my name, but I have heart and soul and nothing is gonna shut me up when it comes to children.

So sorry for you at this dark time. prayers, Karen

This is so horrible and sad for so many.  I am ill and so disturbed when I hear these things.  I can't stop thinking about the children enduring this somewhere.  It is just pure evil and the Devil delights in anything that makes one doubt there is a God.  I am so sorry for the whole situation and all of the others mentioned here.

My last job was Ombudsman for Child Protective Services, Adult Protective Services and Day Care Licensing...for the state of Texas.  It was horrific.  What you wrote reminded me of the awful perps that abound in our society.  It made it all come back to me.  I retired several years ago and had hoped to forget as much as I could.

All I can say to you is to keep the faith, know we are all the better for his capture and hopefully sentencing.  That's one more perp off the streets.  In all honesty, he will be replaced by another who may be worse.  I honestly don't know when or if this vile behavior will ever end.  All that can be done is for parents to be ever mindful of their own children and other children. 

As for you and your husband and friends...just tell them to talk about it, over and over if they need to and hopefully it will dissipate as time goes by.  There is no cure...everybody will have to make their own peace with this. 

You will get over this but you will never ever forget it.  Don't even try.  Just learn to live with it and I do hope you will find some solace.  Know that you are loved and cared for here...we love your funny posts and that in some way this perp will get his due...not by you or your friends but some how some way he will get his.  What goes around will come around.  I promise.  Jail won't be the end of his torture...just wait something will happen that will cause him pain and suffering just like the little kids he had pictures of...it will happen...not right away but it will happen.

Hugs to you and yours.

Kirsten, I don't know what to say for such hideousness!

I am so sorry for you and David, what a betrayal and heartbreak, it's like a death of a close loved one.

You two will need each other  to get through this, especially David, he's going to have to find a place of peace and safety for himself and his soul.

Love and prayers......

I don't know what to say. It sickens me to think of children being looked at or treated this way. I am so sorry you friend has hurt you so badly. Just remember, there are good people out there. It would be nice if the bad ones had tatoos across their foreheads, but it isn't reality. I'm just glad that this very sick man can no longer have access to these innocent children. You and your's are in my thoughts, Kirmy! I wish I could give you a big 'ol hug right now. Just know, we, the people here on OH, Love and support you. If you ever need to vent, we're here. Love and HUGS


Ruby

Kirmy, oh I am so heartsick thinking of what you must be feeling.  And then there are all the thoughts you probably will be having wondering how you could not have seen some signs that he was a sick monster not the nice guy you knew. This will be like grieving a death because someone you thought you knew is no longer there and now there are horrible images in your mind about him. It will take time and healing. And I suspect you will on some level never fully trust anyone easily again as we truly never know what skeletons there on in other people's closets. Sometimes we think we have heard so much about people and life that nothing can shock us and then something like this happens . .Be glad he has been caught and that a nightmare could be ending for many due to his actions . .

Damn Kirmy. Not much to say on this one- no words of wisdom at all. Hold tight to those you do know.

This is so tragic on so many levels!  Although your world as you knew it is changed forever perhaps those children may find some justice--if they are ever found.

It just goes to show we never know what goes on behind closed doors, do we.
Lisa

So horrible, so sick. This happens more than we know, and it's horrific. Those poor children. :(

We hear about cases like this all the time. I don't think there's anything that can rehabilitate these people, either.  I hope, as you said, that his capture will help release some of these children from such horrible treatment. It's heartbreaking.