Eating Disorder - Yeah, I have one
Sometimes you have to go easy on yourself, because sometimes there's simply nobody else that will. Don't beat yourself up over it, just mark it as a lesson learned and move on. You'll make it.....I swear, and DO have the hormones checked. Alot of my "bipolar" was caused by just a few hormones being out of whack.
You're not the only one feeling trapped and so stuck. I'm going through some rough **** on my end which is why I've been so quiet the past few days.
I wish I could eat.... I'd be right there with you, even if it is gonna right to our asses and give my tummy the bubble guts. Sometimes the ice cream sandwiches are so worth it. I like the ones where you gotta lick the chocolate off your fingers from the cake part, you know the cheapy store brand ones lol
It may not get better over night but one thing I've learned is not to let whats going on around me shape who I am but rather let how I handle my portion determine my outcome. Easier said than done a million times over but it helps me keep calm when I want to explode at the world.
When i finally got myself out of my house (abusive house) it took me a few years b4 i finally realized that i could relax mentally and things were very different in life. It takes a lot of time but it gets better, just work on one thing at a time.
Long island prices blow, four of us live in a 1 bedroom and we are paying 1250, it's crazy here.