Am I an idiot or what!!!!

Hello all, Have not posted in a long time. Dumb me, thought I could do this by myself, or look to hubby for support. NOT!!! I have not done what I should have since surgery. (11-11-03) I am paying for it. I am on 3 different prescription drugs for my extreme vitamin defiency, and have not lost any weight in 6 months. I really should not be asking for your support, I have done nothing for you. I am sorry. I had an emergency hysterectomy in July. Up until then I was faithful at the gym 4-5 days a week. Since then, even though released in September to go ahead full throttle, I have not. No excuse but the made up ones. My husband was going with me and doing real well, but when I quit going, so did he, and now he is even a bigger mess then me. He has not had surgery, though I wish he would consider it. I guess what is holding me back truthfully, is I am scared of living a long life and his shortened. Does that make since? I guess I am also scared of the attention the first 130lb loss has givin me, and think what kind of attention would even more loss give me. That would make since to you if you could get in my head, but that is another story. Does anyone else feel this way? Please help Reese

Reese, Don't ever think you don't deserve to ask for help. Everyone makes mistakes because if we didn't we would be God. Just rejoin the support group and start out slow again. It isn't fair to completely give up on yourself. You have come a long way and you wouldnt want to mess it up by completely giving up. You did the right thing by asking for help. Although I am not on the losing side yet and dont know how you feel as far as that part goes, I do know what it means to ask for help and I always encourage those around me to ask. I am a good listener and sometimes that is all it takes. Good luck in getting back on track and hope we can help. D'Lynn

Reese, honey, we all make mistakes, and if we don't, we're probably dead. Every one of us has screwed up, failed, whatever, but we keep on getting up off the mat and going at it, again. I'm probably the oldest one on the board - soon to be a great grandmother - and have had a host of people saying "you're too old to take such a risk", but guess what, I'll be just as old if i stay fat and in poor health. Just take it one day at a time, if you miss a day exercising, get up the next day and go at it. Take your meds, follow your food plan, and soon you won't need the meds anymore. For every post of support you receive, there are probably ten readers out there knowing what you're going through and sympathizing with you. Hang tough, gal, and maybe your husband will jump back in. Good luck, and stick close to the board, Barb in S. Georgia

PLease don't ever feel like you can't come to us for support. We're an extended family here and if you need us - that's what were here for. We realize people have lives to live....things happen.!!!! Start your build up at the gym slowly again. Once you are back into it fully - your husband may join in the efforts! 130 is a LONG way and I'm sure you're doing fantastic!!!! I hope and pray that everything works out for you!!!! Dee Dee

Reese, You are NOT an idiot...You are a human...We all make mistakes.... I'm sorry you are having such a hard time of it. I can sort of relate to your plight, but honey, there is no guarantee that you will be here longer than your hubby, so you have to live life fully everyday. You know what the hardest part of going to the gym is?? GETTING OFF YOUR DUFF AND GOING! ! I am learning that the hard way. I have been trying for the past month to get up early enough in the mornings to go to the gym before work..and just couldn't seem to do it. The day that I FINALLY do.... I had a DOUBLE TIRE blow out! Just didn't seem to pay! LOL! But, I am going to try again tomorrow. Just keep trying hon..and if you go, hubby will too....The attention is really strange to most of us, as many of us have always had been avoid us or treat us very differently before we lost the weight. However, try to learn to accept that you are beautiful....inside AND out. You are STILL YOU...nothing different, it's the perception of others that has changed. I wish you soooo much success and peace of mind and heart! Never feel like you owe anyone on here anything to come and ask for support...that's what we are here for!! (((((Hugs)))) Tami -120

Don't beat yourself up anymore, although we are the best at it, beating yourself up is one of the leaders in making things actually worse than they are. What you are feeling is nothing to be sorry for. You are experiencing something very real to you and how else are you going to "get some support" unless you come to those who can offer it. It is never too late to start again, and may you be blessed with whatever you need in order to get back to doing what you were doing before all the justifications and excuses. (I still battle them everyday, a lot of time every hour of everyday, so I do understand) Hugs and prayers, Theresa

You're not an idiot. Everyone of us have fallen off the horse from one time or another. Its hard to keep focus, expecially when things in your life are in a tumble. Don't be too hard on your self. Try to focus on positive things! Remember positive makes positive and negative loves missery and we are not a part of it. OK! You're in my prayers for a speedy recovery. Life is like a big roller coaster sometimes you're up and then sometimes you're down, as you get older you learn to go with the rolls and the probems that come in your life will roll off you back and you'll get an attitude like me "Your point is! Been there and done that!. God bless you and yours and for a speedy recovery in health and life. Take care. Love ki