(((((((((((((((((((BARB)))))))))))))))))) I so wish I was there to give you hugz in person. There are no words that I can say to you right now. You are going through one of the toughest things in your life (and hers) and I know that you will both make it through stronger better women. I know that she will make the right decision and give this baby to a loving couple who can give it the life that it will deserve. I know that you will be there everyday for her when she is crying over it and holding her telling her that she will be okay. If you need me you know how to get a hold of me. ((((((((((((((MORE HUGZ TO YOU!)))))))))))))))))))))) Nancy

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Did u get the money I sent for the trip?

I have been putting this off because in some sort of way I thought it MIGHT go away but I KNEW realistically it is not going to go away. I am truely beside myself. This might get long so bear with me. So here is what has been happening in my world in the last couple of months. Yes, this has to do with my daughter: October 26, my daughter came to me and told me that she had a car (of her own) and my first reaction is panic ... she has not enough money to be buying a car nor do I have enough to be buying her a car... I thought maybe it was her dad... no... so I started probing a little further and found out that it was a girl that is a friend that bought it for her (so she was telling me) and so i am asking her how she is going to be paying this back she goes "she said I don't have too" and I am thinking what kind of "friend" is going to get you a car and not expect to be paid back that kind of money. Ok so I am doing some of my own detective work and did get the cops involved because this whole time it is not feeling right. The paperwork she had was even more suspicious the ONLY information that is on this paper is the information off her drivers license, the VIN number and how much was paid for the car, how much was paid down and how much was to be paid every 2 weeks and HER signature (no adult)... no tax, no license fee and keep in mind she is also a minor (17). Ok fast forword 3 weeks I find out that she has a "boyfriend" and he is the one that is buying this said car for her. OK now I am fuming... she has had this "boyfriend" for about 7 months and has not told me because she knows how I would feel about it. She has been LYING to me this whole time. Even up until the time I found out about the "boyfriend" THEN on November 26, her world as she knew it and as I know it fell apart. Yes I know you know where I am going with this.... she found out she is pregnant! Man this is the LAST thing I expected from my daughter and she knows it. How "I" found out is she called me at work and at first I was just very upset at how she told me because I couldn't properly process it until I was off work 4 hours after she told me. Then when I got home she was at work. So I guess in the long run "everything happens for a reason" because I was able to process this and pick and choose my words instead of attacking her like I wanted to and would have been soooo wrong to do that. I tell yah there were several days there where I was sooo sick because my eating was sooooo outta whack and my hair was falling out (stress) well I have since had time to process it but still am at a loss for what to do. She is still going to have the baby but I would really like to see her give it up for an adoption (ok before you go off on me hear me out) she is so not ready to be raising a child and I also feel that the financial responsibility is going to fall back on me and her dad. Why do I feel this because the father of this said child is here illegally and I KNOW as soon as they start putting on the pressure for his idenity and wanting documents he is not going to be able to produce (legally) he is going to run. I have since found out that in his other country he has 5 kids. I have asked her about "another wife/girlfriend" both in his other county and the town he lives in (she only sees him on the weekends) and she said she has asked him several times and he denies that there is one. I have found out that he is verbally attacking her and has pulled her hair. He drinks alot and attempts to drive the car. When his friends are around he ignores her. I am just crazy with fear for her. I soooo want him gone but if for some reason he should disappear then she (because her name is the only one on the car) is going to be stuck with the payments of the car and the insurance which is over $200/month (being on her own) because he told her to keep that insurance he would pay it (because they refused to wait so that I could get her on my insurance for about $70/month. He has talked her into adding a phoneline to her cell phone plan so he can have a phone to "keep in contact with her".... my ass he is using that to keep track of her. She has to call him every morning at 5 to wake his ass up for work because he don't have an alarm clock then she is to call him every night as well and when he calls she needs to answer All I gotta say is poor baby get yourself a GD alarm clock and use it like the adult you are suppose to be (he is 22) This is just making me crazy. My mother instinct on this because of other conversations we have had is that he is controlling her, he WANTED to get her pregnant.... he is aparently trying to get his papers and when he does he supposedly is going to ask her to marry him and when she turns 18 they will get married but my gut is telling me that he is using her as his ticket into the country. Once he marries her it is a done deal she will then be "his property" and the abuse as she knows it is going to get worse. She is expected to graduate on June 1st she turns 18 on June 3rd and the baby is due Aug. 6th. She did say health willing she WILL graduate but her actions with school work that is mandatory is telling me otherwise. I am going through a whirlwind of emotions right now and I guess as a parent...those of you that are one know what I mean when I say "I expected MORE from my daughter than this." AND yes I do feel like a failure!! OK I knew that this was going to get long just cause I can't say anything simply thats me but I just needed to vent and to explain why "I" have been so quiet lately. So Nancy the answer to your question.... I would love nothing MORE than to be there for you and Dan but with her due date being 08-06 I better stay close to home. Amanda the answer to YOUR question is... IS IT MARCH YET??? Thank you in advance for listening and for any advice you give. I am off to work now so I will answer later when I get home. LOVE YOU GUYS!! YOU ROCK!! ((((HUGS))))

I'm here now! Been crazy with the holidays!