Just keep swimming

HI Amy~   ((I'm sorry--this has ended up being a long post....)) I'm sooooo glad you're back!!!    While you might have been gone for only a few days, the impact of your absence was really felt.  You are an integral part of this OH family! Yup--I agree---there's always a reason for delay. While waiting can be soooo frustrating, we should take that time to look inside ourselves, as you are doing.  In my situation with the placement fiasco, it looks like it will APRIL before I can get into another placement. It is MANDATORY to put in 60 days of 4th year placement in order to graduate. This effectively bombs my grandiose plan to have a 'pomp and cir****tance' graduation with my cohorts in May, as my 60 days carries over to the end of June. Yup--I was upset, and angry at the preceptor at the placement I left, and full of regrets about so many things.  HOWEVER--in the time since I left that placement, I have come to realize that I did not see in myself classic depression symptoms (in spite of being meds), which in retrospect are likely the cause of many of the problems I had in that placement. I am now on a different medication, which hopefully will help me in many areas. I am seeking help in dealing with issues that I have not dealt with because I was raising my 4 kids as a single parent, dealing with the emotional aftermath of my hubby's death some years ago, going to university after being out of school for 25 years, being busy doing school work, blah blah blah...  The  point is---God has a reason for all this, and although I don't agree with His plans, I'm quite sure using this time to better myself IS part of the plan.  So I trust in Him who does know the future and I also trust that this hiatus will have benefits further down the road, in one way or another. So--yes--there is always SOME reason for delays!! BIG (((HUGS))) and **SUE**

im so glad you came back!  I was so sad when you said you were leaving for a bit, im glad it wasnt for long!  It wouldnt be the same without you!

Amy, I'm so glad to see you back here!   You were missed!!!   I totally understand how you had to take a step back.  I had expereinced that for a while when I was going through that 6 month insurance hurdle.  I felt frustrated that everyone was getting dates and just moving forward to their goals and I was stuck sitting around waiting for the insurance, but before I knew it my date came.    Just know (as I'm sure you do) that we are all here for you!!!!

AMY, Its so good to see you again!  You are truly a super trooper.  We are all here for you and this is the journey, sometime times it rough, but that is what makes us stronger in the end.  So glad to have you back.

Amy, I am very glad to see your smiling face on the boards again.  I know it is tough for you right now.  Selfishly, very glad to see you back.   Take care of yourself!!!!! Kelly Ann

Amy,  I am so glad you're back. I may not say much on here, but I find it hard to get through the day with out your enthusiasm, and heartfelt encouragement.

You are an incredible woman, and you will get yours, and it will be worth the wait!!! So glad your smily face is back!! Big hugs to you!

Amy, sweetheart, I love you to pieces.  And I can understand your need to take a step back to take a deep breath while your head & heart processed everything.  As much as we all support each other here, I've got to believe that the day you post that you've been approved and have a surgery date, this place will CELEBRATE like never before!  Because you have seen so many of us through OUR journey to surgery, all while struggling to put your own journey in place.  Talk about being unselfish!!!   The binge eating you described probably applies to a whole lot of us.  The whole "if no one knows I stuffed that wad of cookie dough in my face, then it doesn't count" mentality has probably contributed to many cases of MO!  I know I did it.  The urge isn't gone just because I had surgery, either.  The fear of dumping, and not doing so much treat-making has certainly put the ki-bosh on lots of it, tho!   As for not taking your own advice?  I suspect you'll learn to do just that.  I know I've been doing that recently, and didn't even realize it at first.  But when I've had some "down" moments or less than happy thoughts, I found myself thinking about what I'd say to anyone here that shared similar thoughts!  And once I recognized that I was giving some fairly decent advice to others, I started turning it on myself!  It helped me get through a rather lengthy "plateau", it helped me kick myself in the butt for eating a cookie here or some M&Ms there, and it helped me get my tush to coffee when I really felt like saying "screw it!" and sleeping in! You are an amazing, giving, loving and LOVELY woman.  So there.  Can't wait to see you!!

Amy - you are a strong and wonderful person who has always supported and rallied the rest of us.  Your humor and knowledge and occasional smart a** comments brighten everyones day - so as you keep swimming - please know that you have a school of other fish around you too - some ahead, some behind, some along side - all cheering you on.

a friend once told me - and i am sure I will screw this up - but when it feels like you are walking through a valley on your own - the low times - you are not alone - those that care and love you are walking with you on the rim of the canyon cheering you on.

We love you Amy - thank you for all you do for us.  and we are here to do our best to support you too.

Thanks for coming back.

Linda

 

{{{{{{{{{Amy}}}}}}}}}} So glad to see you back.  I missed your post last week about what happened, but we were talking about it on Friday up at the cabin.  We were all so upset for you, and hoping that you wouldn't be gone long, as we all love you so much!  We just didn't think that the board would be the same without your insite and comments.  You have been so supportive of all of us as we have gone through this journey that we just couldn't imagine you not there.  Just remember - we are here for you as much as you are here for us...so come to us with your vents, frustrations, and joys.  We can't wait until we hear from you that you have been approved and have a surgery date!  What a party we will all have that day! Love ya girl!  Come to Western WI coffee sometime soon!

Hi  Amy....I am so glad to see you back....I have missed you!! You have had many struggles along the way but I know you are strong enough to get over each one.  Love the honesty in your post...you ROCK!!! Hugs and love....connie d