Guilt

Nicole -- Half the pan -- I would have eaten the entire pan pre-WLS!!!!  I dump on sugar so that keeps me away from it all so i am VERY LUCKY I don't have this struggle cause I cannot be sick all the time!!! But don't beat yourself up.  When  you go to mom's, vacation, etc., crap happens!!  That's why they are mom's and eventually grandma's who sugar up the kids and send them home -- it's our job!!!   This is not what you normally do now!!!  And while the past week may be down the drain in your mind, look what you accomplished last week!!!!  And you feel the guilt == did you feel that in the past?  This is a life stle change -- not a permanent off limits to all !!  Just get back on track this week and move forward.   Suggestions -- bring a pre-surgery picture with you and stick it right on top of the brownie pan cover!!  A progressive picture from now up to the surgery is a good way I reflect on what is going to happen if I don't stick to the plan -- see how you are going to grow back the other way may help.  But believe me -- 3 brownies at mom's on a special weekend ain't gonna do it.  It's if you do it too often. WHOOO HOOOO -- You didn't eat more than 3 and tomorow you will be back on track!!! Way to go!!!

Good point I do usually avoid brownies, cookies, etc and do not keep them in my house so going to my parents' place is always an extra challenge with the bad foods staring me in the face all day.  Maybe next time I will try letting myself have a small amount with everyone else and then be satisfied with that.  Today is a new day and I am not going to mess this one up.

Hey Girlfriend! It's ok and let the guilt go.  It helps nothing.  Like others have said, just get up and get going.  Spend some extra time with Mr. L. Calhoun  :) Maybe one of your goals could be to not SNEAK.  You know we both have this same problem and I'm really trying to be more open about what I eat.  It kind of takes the mystique out of it too... You can do it  :)  WE can do it... together!!

I am planning on either a double trip around the lake or a long trip up at my parents place depending on when I head back today.   I know that the first step to ending this problem (which occurs everytime I come up to visit) to stop the sneaking and just make sure to make choices I am not ashamed of.  Together we will conquer this monster!

Let the guilt go!! Now ya know, but it doesn't mean you won't dump the next time.  I too don't rarly dump from sugars but every so often I do.  My advice:  ya know what a brownie tastes like, you know where it can lead and NEVER FORGET the guilt and icky feeling you are going thru right now as that will help keep you from doing so just like dumping will.   Also, find out *WHY* you are "testing" the limits.  Don't forget YOU have the control over food now, it doesn't control you! Don't beat yourself up~ LEARN FROM THIS!!  *THIS* is how it will be for the rest of your journey so who is gonna win?  Did ya come this far to throw in the white flag and surrender back to food?~ I THINK NOT!! You can do it! Hugs 

Thank you! I know that I need to take the power back from the food this is one thing I have been battling since my surgery, because it still pulls me off course and then I feel like this.  I need to realize that the best thing for me is to not give in and as you said acknowledge that I know what it tastes like and don't really need to eat it.  I think that I struggle with my eating here so much because for 5 or 6 years when I was a teenager I had serious secret eating going on here so I think the key may be breaking that correlation.  I will NOT let the food win this time!

Nicole, I know how you feel....More than you know....I feel this past month I failed....But we both just have to get back on the horse so to speak.......... I did put a old picture up on my refrig, to stop me from eating when I shouldn't, it has helped. Maybe you could ask your Mom not to bake when you come over, that way the temptation won't be there. I know everything we put in our mouths is our responcibility, but if others can help by not having it around that would be nice and helpful. You have done wonderful, you look great, just get back on track and it should all be okay. PM me if you need to talk more, I really do know what your going through, I ate sugar cookies yesterday and didn't dump.......But I jumped on the treadmill before bed, thank god I didn't gain... Love, Kelly

Thank you!  This weekend was a special thing since it was my moms birthday last Wednesday and the brownies were in place of a cake, but I agree that when I come up next time I will ask her to not have any of my trigger foods in the house and more protien options, either that or I will pack more of my own food to bring with.  The biggest problem I have is that it is so difficult finding healthy, protien rich food there because my parents eat a lot more carbs.  I wanted to go for a reun/walk yesterday but I had to watch my nephews the whole day/evening so I didn't get out. Today, however I will get a good long workout in.  I am afraid of seeing the scale tomorrow morning.   Love & Hugs, Nicole

Nikki.....You have nothing to feel so bad about. This happens. You have learned that how you feel now is almost as bad a if you would have dumped. It was a special occasion....nothing more then that. As for the sneaking ....do try not to go in that direction. If you want a little treat with everyone else, have it and don't feel guilty!! You are doing a fabulous job and it shows!! I am proud of you! Hugs, connie d

I agree that I really need to stop the sneaking food and that may help with the rest.  I agree how I feel emotionally about my brownies last night is not worth the few minutes of having that taste in my mouth and is about equal to dumping.  Thank you for your support!