OT-Mental Health stuff--kinda scary
Thanks Connie! It has actually been 1 1/2 years in June since I did any major SI so I know that I can live without doing it I am just not sure why the urge to watch the video came back. Thank you so much for the prayers I know that through Him all things are possible and that I will get through this without engaging. Love & Hugs! Nicole
"When you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
Thank you Robyn! It helps a lot knowing that there are people I can talk to and a place where I can share what is happening in my life so that I do not keep it secret, because I have learned that, that is when it starts to consume my life and then I withdraw and things go from bad to worse, so I am cutting it off at the pass and hoping it will leave me alone.
"When you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
Recognizing a slippery slope is the first step in taking a different path, so you should give yourself a lot of credit for having done that. From your post, it sounds like you have made enormous strides in your life this past year, both physically and mental-health wise. Double Wow! Your strength and courage are awe-inspiring to those of us who are still pre-surgery and working through our own issues. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you, I am glad I am glad that I can inspire others by my life, that is new for me! I have transformed into a new person over the past year (both physically and mentally) and am finally able to find happiness in my life. It has been a long road, but I am determined never to turn back. Good luck to you on your journey!
"When you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
I know what you are going through to some extent.... I watched my ex go through it to. He stopped SI and also had a hard time with reading material sometimes.... it reminded him of what he used to do.
But the fact now is, you are moving on!! And what an AMAZING feeling that is!! To look back and say, "Nope. That's not my life anymore. I choose not to relate to that anymore." That takes a lot of consciousness and strength!
Thank you! For the past year or so I have not allowed myself to read/watch/listen to anything that could be triggering and so last night was the first time I came in contact with it since I stopped. I think I just have to continue to remind myself that I am not that person any more. The reasons that I used to SI are no longer there and I have other ways to deal with my emotions (i.e. coming here and exercising).
"When you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
I'm not a psychologist by any stretch, but I have a theory.
You are entering a "phase" in your life that you are admittedly not terribly familiar with - confidence, self appreciation, health, however you want to identify it. It's all GOOD, but you haven't had these things for a while (if ever?) - so they might be a little frightening, or intimidating.
So I'm thinking it's probably understandable that you would look back to things in life you are more familiar with, even those things (SI) that you don't WANT to go back to. Yes, it's probably best to avoid any and all reference to those things that might trigger a negative behavior. But here again, I think you can use the FEAR it has caused you to your advantage! Maybe tell yourself that no matter how familiar or comfortable those old ways may feel, staying clear of them in favor of your new, HEALTHIER life is WAY BETTER!! In too many ways to count!
Bravo to you for sharing this here - we'll support you through this!
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